Written In The Stars | M. Ozil ( Sequel to Hotel Room Service) [completed]

Thirty two

Vanessa stepped inside her house. It was silent, she felt relieved that Mesut had practice. She had no idea how was she going to tell him what was going on.
Vanessa hadn't decided what she was going to do yet. She wanted to talk with Mesut about it. It was the best thing she had to do. Mesut was a part of her life and he had every right to know something like that.
The problem though was, that Vanessa couldn't tell him.
She knew she wasn't that brave to tell him something like that.
How was he going to react ?
If he was in love with her like he said he was, things were going to be really bad.
Vanessa almost wished that he didn't mean what he say. She didn't want him to be sad because of her.
Vanessa went inside her bedroom and closed the door behind her.
She fell in her bed and started crying.
Why had things to be like that now ? Now, that everything was starting to fall into place ?

A ringing doorbell woke up Vanessa. She realized she had fallen asleep. She didn't know why she had fallen asleep but then remembered that she had been exhausted because of crying. And then remembered why she had been crying and felt her eyes filling with tears again.
The doorbell rang again and Vanessa made her way to the door to open it.
Mesut was standing there looking worried at her.
- I've called you like a hundred times and I'm here ringing the doorbell like half an hour. What happened ?
- I was sleeping.
Vanessa responded.
That however wasn't a complete lie.
Mesut looked at her trying to figure out what was wrong with her.
She looked like she had been sleeping but her eyes were red as if she had cried. As if she had cried a lot.
Vanessa on the other hand didn't try to hide how awful she was feeling.
She had an awful headache and she knew that she was most probably looking like a mess.
- We've got this match against Chelsea on Saturday and........I don't know. We're not that good lately.
Mesut spoke but it was possible that Vanessa hadn't actually heard a thing.
- Vanessa, are you there ?
Mesut asked pulling her into a hug from which Vanessa hastily escaped.
Mesut thought that maybe she was playing games but looking at her, he realized that Vanessa didn't seem in the mood of playing games.
- Is everything alright ?
He asked carefully.
Vanessa nodded.
Her eyes didn't meet his. She couldn't tell him, not now. She would break him and she couldn't break him. She was in love with him. She......
- I need some time on my own.
She said her voice shaking.
Mesut looked at her. He couldn't believe that Vanessa was the same person he had woken up beside this morning.
- You want me to leave ?
Mesut asked being surprised.
Was Vanessa kicking him out ?
She didn't say anything.
- I need some time to think.
Vanessa said again.
- Is it about Josie, Vanessa ? I don't know what else I have to do to make you realize that I don't fucking care about her.
He came close to her, his lips searching for hers but Vanessa just stepped backwards.
- I really need some time on my own.
She repeated, trying to make her voice steady so that Mesut would realize that she really meant what she said.
- Okay, I'll leave, just answer me, is this thing about Josie ?
Vanessa's eyes filled with tears. She didn't fucking care about Josie. She couldn't control her feelings anymore and she burst out crying.
- Leave Mesut okay ? Just leave. I want to be alone. Please.
- Vanessa......
She didn't wait for him to leave.
She headed to her room, locking the door behind her and cried like she had never cried before. She couldn't leave him. Of course, she couldn't. Her feelings for him were so strong. She had dreams for the two of them. Dreams that now seemed impossible to ever be true. Because long distance relations barely survived.
A few minutes later, she heard a knock on her door.
- Just leave!
She screamed, bursting out crying again.
- I can't, not until you tell me what's going on.
- I can't! Please leave Mesut.
She cried.
Mesut tried to open the door.
- Have you locked yourself into your room ? Open the fucking door Vanessa.
He now screamed.
Vanessa didn't bother to stop crying so for her to open the door.
- Leave Mesut. Please. Don't make this any harder.
She made her way to the door, leaning against it knowing that Mesut was expecting her to tell him what was going on.
- Vanessa please tell me what's wrong ?
She burst out crying harder.
Mesut closed his eyes in frustration, trying to convince himself that Vanessa had just a bad day, but no. It was obvious that this wasn't the problem.
- Vanessa, the reason why you're crying has anything to do with me ?
He asked and added to himself:
Or the fact that Josie had been all fucking touchy with me ?
Mesut knew that he shouldn't have laughed the previous night with the stupid jokes, Josie had said.
He didn't even like her. Well, she was an attractive woman and all these kind of stuff but Mesut didn't lie when he said he was in love with Vanessa. He regretted the moment he had started chatting with this Josie though and didn't impatiently wait for Vanessa.
- Of course, it has to do with you!
Vanessa screamed from the other side of the door.
- Everything I do, has to do with you, don't you know that ?
Vanessa said crying out again.
Mesut wanted to scream. It was obvious that Vanessa was still mad at him.
- Okay, listen to me. I'll leave but I'll come back and you better tell me what's going on okay ?
Vanessa didn't respond, Mesut could hear her cry though.
- Vanessa ?
Mesut asked gently this time. He didn't want to scare her.
- Leave. Please.
Mesut didn't make an effort to make her talk again.
She was mad. And she had every right to be mad. Mesut shouldn't have flirted with that girl.
Vanessa was broken hearted and Mesut knew that this was exactly why Vanessa didn't want to be involved in a relation with him or with anybody else. He had screwed everything up.
He wasn't going to stay there and begging her to talk to him. He knew he had to do something.

Mesut hadn't returned to Vanessa's place the same night neither tried to call her. He decided to give her some space. She definitely needed that.
He wasn't able to focus on practice the next day though.
And then it was Aaron asking him what was going on after they finished practice. Mesut wasn't in the mood of talking but he just explained the whole thing to Aaron.
- But you said, she forgave you.
Aaron commented after hearing what Mesut had to say.
- It was obvious that she didn't mean it Aaron.
- I don't think so, to tell you the truth.
- Why ?
- Because you said you are in love with her. Prove me wrong but have you heard of any girl rejecting a man after saying that he's in love with her ? Even if it's bullshit ?
Mesut thought of it.
He had to admit that Aaron had his point there. And Vanessa didn't seem mad at him yesterday night.
Not mad at all.
Mesut thought to himself remembering the way they had kissed, and the sex that followed both at night and morning.
- But she has nothing else to be mad at me.
- How the fuck do you know that this has to do with you ?
- She said so Aaron. She said that everything has to do with me.
Mesut confessed remembering the way Vanessa had screamed yesterday.
- Maybe she figured out that you were talking bullshit when saying that you were in love with her.
Mesut looked at Aaron.
- What do you mean, she had figured out ? I was speaking the truth. I am in love with her.
Aaron looked at him with raised eyebrows.
- That's no good mate. She has you........
- Stop it Aaron. Help me find out what's wrong with her.
Mesut was desperate. He couldn't bear seeing Vanessa crying. She had looked so sad, so depressed yesterday. And Mesut knew that he had something to do with it and that, could kill him.
He hadn't lied when he said that he was in love with her. He was. He was in love with everything that had to do with her.
He couldn't believe though that he had made her so depressed.
He couldn't bear it. He couldn't bear losing her.
He.......
- Something's not right.
Aaron said being lost in his thoughts.
At least he was serious for once.
Mesut thought to himself.
- I know that something's not right Aaron. That's what I keep telling you.
Mesut replied but he was thankful that at least Aaron was helping him sort this thing out.
He wanted to find out what was wrong with Vanessa. And she didn't seem willing to tell him.
Why ? Didn't she trust him ?
After everything they've been through she still didn't trust him ?
Mesut couldn't actually believe that he had gained Vanessa's trust with that much of difficulty and then managed to ruin everything just in seconds.
He didn't want to think of it. He couldn't believe he had behaved like that.
What was he thinking ? He couldn't bear the thought that he had hurt her. And made her cry. Vanessa didn't deserve that. She was a really nice girl and Mesut was head over heels for her.
He made a mental note not to make her feel like that again.
- Well, like I said I don't believe that she's still mad at you because of Josie.
Aaron said again.
Mesut looked at him.
- Then why ?
- I think it's simple. You said that she cried, that she tried to avoid you and that she asked you to leave wanting to be alone.
- Yes.
- I know what's going on.
Mesut looked at him interested. Aaron seemed to know what was really happening.
- Enlighten me then.
Mesut said watching him carefully.
- She's pregnant.