Written In The Stars | M. Ozil ( Sequel to Hotel Room Service) [completed]

Fourteen

Mesut had leaned to kiss her and Vanessa knew exactly what he was trying to do. Being honest with herself she craved for his kiss. She did so, since she lost the opportunity when filming a scene. Vanessa looked into his eyes as he was staring at her lips.
It seemed like forever to Vanessa until Mesut took the desicion not to kiss her. He stared back at her eyes instead and made a step backwards, freeing her chin from his finger. Vanessa tried not to make obvious how dissapointed she was. She was pretty sure that he was going to kiss her.
Why didn't he anyway ? What had he thought that stopped him from doing so ? Vanessa decided not to speak cause it was possible that she would say things that she would regret. She had turned mad unable to justify the reason even to herself.
Mesut stared apologetically at her and she decided to let it go. She knew that if he wanted, he would have kissed her.
- I'm really sorry Vanessa. Do you want us to leave ?
Vanessa nodded and they both headed to the elevator, without holding hands this time. Mesut was staring at Vanessa just to make sure she wasn't going to kill him, although the way she was looking at him, didn't convince him.
- Are you cold ?
He asked her when getting outside the restaurant.
- No.
She responded making her way to his car.
- Vanessa, wait. Are you mad ?
- No.
- Are you sure ?
- Yes.
- Do you want us to talk about it ?
Vanessa couldn't control herself and burst out laughing. Mesut was now confused.
- What's so funny ?
He asked her being annoyed.
- Nothing, just drive me home please, I need to take some sleep, cause I should be at the studio early tomorrow morning.
- Are you sure you're not mad ?
- Why should I be mad ?
- I don't know. You may think that I take advantage of you.
- I've never thought something like that. I know that you got influenced by the moment and that it would be romantic kissing me there, so you just attempted it. I'm not mad. Really.
She didn't even believe herself while telling these things and she knew well enough that Mesut didn't believe her either.
- Okay, let's drive you home.
He said and they both entered the car.
They remained silent all the way to Vanessa's house.
Mesut didn't know exactly how to feel. He attempted to kiss her, because he wanted to kiss her. He couldn't resist having her that close and not touching her at all.
On the other hand, he wasn't sure about the way she was going to react. Vanessa was really unpredictable. She turned mad easily and Mesut was afraid that she wouldn't talk to him again, if he kissed her. He understood though, that he was wrong. Her reaction betrayed, that she would have liked him kissing her. Mesut was now goddamning himself for not taking this chance. It was possible that he wouldn't be given another opportunity to kiss her. He wanted to punch something in that thought. He knew he had to do something immediately.
They arrived outside Vanessa's house and she was about to open the car's door but Mesut placed her hand gently on hers.
- I'm really sorry Vanessa.
- It's fine Mesut.
- Would you......
He started saying, knowing that what he was about to propose her was unrealistic, but also knowing that he had to ask.
- What ?
Vanessa asked him, feeling thrilled only in the thought that he was touching her.
- Well, I'm flying to Germany in two days, cause there'll be a Chrisrmas fundraising event in Berlin and I was thinking.........
- If I could accompany you ?
Vanessa asked raising her eyebrows.
- Yes, actually, but that's only if you want to. It's something we do every year.
- We ?
- The German National Team.
Vanessa opened her mouth in shock. She wasn't going to go anyway, cause she had important stuff to do as far as her movie was concerned but she had now an even stronger point. Julian was a part of the team which simply meant that he was going to be there. She felt sick only in the thought.
- I'm not coming.
She said fastly making Mesut worried again.
- Is it because you're mad ? I'm so sorry Vanessa, I really mean it, what do you want me to do to..........
- Stop it Mesut. It has nothing to do with that.
- Then what........
He stopped when realizing.
- I can't because of the movie and.......
- Is it because of Julian ?
- Julian ? What are you talking about ? I haven't even thought of it.
Her tone of voice betrayed that she was lying.
- It's okay Vanessa I understand.
- Excuse me ? Do you think that Julian's the reason that I won't come ?
- I don't say that he's the main reason, I just say that you have a better reason not to come because of him.
- You're wrong. Julian and I have broken up almost two months ago. Are you implying that I'm not yet over him ?
- I don't imply anything, but if I want to be real, we both know that you haven't.
- That was enough mr. Ozil. I had enough tonight. Thank you for the dinner, thank you for everything you've done, have a safe flight to Berlin, if you see Julian tell him I'm fine although he doesn't care. Good night.
She said exiting Mesut's car.
- Wait, Vanessa it's a fundraising event, think of it please.
- There's nothing and I mean it, nothing that would make me change my mind.

- Cut!
Noah screamed. Vanessa placed her head in her hands. It wasn't the first time that her cast didn't have a clue about the scene they were filming.
- Take a five minutes break.
Noah said making his way to Vanessa.
- If you hadn't left like that yesterday, things would be better.
He complained at Vanessa. She faked a smile, knowing that he was right. She was the boss there, but her behaviour yesterday was unacceptable even to her. She felt really ashamed.
- We can fix it Noah. The cast was good today.
- Are you kidding me Vanessa ? It seems like you don't care about your own movie.
Noah screamed.
- It's not that I don't care, but I think, we're a little too harsh on them.
- A little too harsh ? Vanessa, are you trying to make me lose my mind ? They're awful and they're because there's no interest from your side.
- Well, I've got a lot in my mind lately.
- Like ?
- Like.....you know.......I've got.......
- Yeah......?
- A fundraising event in Germany going on, that I have to be at.
- What ?
- I fly tomorrow.
- Vanessa, are you completely out of your mind ?
She was and she knew it, but couldn't do much about it. She promised herself, not to even consider going to this event as an option, but after the awful day she spent at the studio, she had kind of changed her mind.
- I know, I should have told you earlier but it just occurred.
- It just occurred.
Noah repeated while deep in his thoughts. He was pretty sure, Vanessa was crazy.
- I have to go Noah.
- Sure. When are you coming back ?
Vanessa thought of it. She seriously had no idea. She didn't even know when this event was taking place.
- I don't know yet.
She responded honestly.
- Vanessa, I really don't want to put so much pressure on you, but I really don't think that this is a good timing.
Vanessa didn't respond. She knew well enough that this wasn't a good timing. She didn't even want to go before some time, but she really felt like she needed some vacation, even if that vacation were including a reunion with her ex.
- I promise to come back as soon as possible and I promise that after that we'll focus only on the movie.
Noah looked at her in disbelief. After the success that her previous movie had gained, Vanessa was less interested in her job. Noah wasn't sure if this was the reason, or if Vanessa had other priorities, which was likely she had.
- Safe flight.
It was the only thing Noah said before announcing to the cast that their break was over.

Later that night, Vanessa was laying in her bed, checking her emails, trying to decide whether she should check in for the next flight in Berlin or not. She wasn't sure that she wanted to go, she actually knew that she didn't want to but that would make Mesut think that it was because of Julian. Not that she cared about what Mesut was thinking, but she just wanted to prove herself.
She knew that it wasn't a good idea. She had nothing to do with the National team. There would only be wifes and girlfriends and she had nothing to do with it. Not anymore.
She needed some vacation though. She needed some time away from London. She needed to clear her mind, cause she had to think about a lot of things and one of them was why she wanted so desperately Mesut to kiss her.
Was she so alone that she would have wanted a kiss from anyone ?
Deep down she knew that this wasn't true. If she wanted to kiss anyone, she could have also allow Noah to kiss her and he had a lot of chances to do so.
It was Mesut's lips that she would like to taste and knowing that she had already lost two opportunities could drive her crazy. She was pretty sure that he would kiss her, when he leaned to, but changed his mind within seconds.
Vanessa couldn't understand why. If he didn't want to, why bother attempt it ? She wanted so desperately to ask him but knew that she would never had the courage to do so.
She thought that after coming back to London her life would be much more easy. It turned out to be that she was completely mistaken. Since she came here, she managed to get involved in situations she never thought she would. Her mind was a mess, full with all these thoughts. She thought again about the trip in Germany. It was definitely not a good idea, but she wasn't a fan of good ideas. Without her realizing, she had subconsciously taken her decision.