Sempiternal ♢ Jicheol

구 • feelings

Angst because I feel so angst-y these days

Jihoon was a bubbly person. He loved socializing with everybody. Every single thing in the world makes him happy, even the simplest things. He was all smiley and he the definition of the word "happiness".

For Jihoon, happiness was simple. It's hugs and stories shared with each other. It's the smiles, the laughs, the cheers. Happiness is warm. It starts from the tip of your fingers and travels throughout your body.

But dear, change is inevitable.

The Jihoon who was bubbly, is now an emotionless person. He started to become anti-social. Nothing makes him happy nor smile anymore.

For Jihoon, being happy isn't easy like it used to be back then. Now it's all about the tears, the sobs, the breakdowns. The sadness starts deep within you and engulfs your whole existence until no happiness is left.

He wanted to smile. He wanted to laugh with everybody but something in him grabs his heart, his fragile heart and crushes it into pieces.

And it was all because of Seungcheol.

The moment he saw his lover—ex lover kissing someone who wasn't him, crushed him. The way Seungcheol smiled while kissing the other guy made him sick. He saw how Seungcheol wrapped his arms around the guy, just like how he did to Jihoon back then. He saw the twinkle​ in his eyes, the same twinkle he saw when he said "yes" to Seungcheol.

All of the colors Jihoon had slowly turned into black and white. The smiles were now replaced with tears.

Maybe, happiness wasn't just meant for everybody, and Jihoon was one of them.