Sempiternal ♢ Jicheol

육십 칠 • pressured

7 and 8

Hope you like this one!! ^^

important note at the end.
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It's been weeks since the last time Seungcheol ever heard from Jihoon. He doesn't know how he's doing, if he's been eating well or getting enough sleep. Zero contacts, that's for sure. He felt so lonely and empty.

He knows Jihoon had locked himself up in the studio. It was a normal thing for the producer but it only lasted for days. Now, almost two weeks had passed but there's still no sign of Jihoon.

Seungcheol was getting more and more frustrated as he hears the clock ticking. He was standing outside Jihoon's studio, arguing with himself whether he should enter or not. He wanted to confront Jihoon for he couldn't handle the pain and neglected feeling he's carrying inside his heart.

He was scared. Scared of what might happen.

Will Jihoon shout at him? Will he get angry like how he does when the other member enters his studio without permission? Will Jihoon... realize that he doesn't want to be with him and break it off?

Just the thought of separating made Seungcheol burst into sobs. He placed a hand over his mouth to control the sounds he was making. He wanted to leave but it seems like his feet were glued to the floor.

Then, the door opened. A sleepy and tired-looking Jihoon came face to face with a broken, crying Seungcheol. Despite how cold Jihoon looked like, he could feel his chest tighten as he sees his boyfriend cry in front of him.

"Come inside." Jihoon grabbed Seungcheol's arm and tugged him towards the studio. He then locked the door and made the older sit on the sofa. Seungcheol couldn't help but hug him.

He tried to resist, but he couldn't. He wanted to feel Jihoon's warmth, his embrace. Those arms where he found home. He buried his face on Jihoon's stomach, his sobs slowly dying down.

"Did... did you leave because.. you don't like me anymore?" Seungcheol asked with fear in his voice. Despite how tough he looks like, he becomes soft and vulnerable when it comes to Jihoon.

"What- no! Of course not! Idiot, I didn't leave." Jihoon shook his head and placed a palm on his forehead, stress evident on his face.

"Then why?! Why didn't you bother to text or call me for two weeks? Two weeks, Lee Jihoon!"

"BECAUSE I WAS PRESSURED."

They were both silenced. The heavy tension can clearly be felt around the atmosphere. Seungcheol looked at Jihoon with soft eyes before pulling him down on his lap.

"The pressure's just too much Cheol. Too much. Making new songs, producing music. What if I fail? What if it doesn't turn out good? What if the fans don't like it? What if—"

Seungcheol cut Jihoon's ramble with a kiss. A passionate kiss. Seungcheol placed his hand at the back of Jihoon's neck and tilted his head, making their lips lock perfectly with each other. It feels as if their lips were jigsaw puzzles that fills up all the missing pieces.

After a few seconds, Jihoon broke the kiss. They both leaned in and placed their foreheads against each other, panting softly.

"You're perfect, baby. Stop overthinking. You're doing just fine. The fans will love it. The company will love it. I love you." Seungcheol uttered softly.

"No matter how busy I am, I'll take care of you. I love you, Seungcheol. I'm sorry for neglecting you. I promise I'll do good." Jihoon muttered softly while looking straight to Seungcheol's eyes.

The older just nodded and smiled softly at his boyfriend. How could he even doubt this man in front of him? He asked himself. He placed another small kiss on Jihoon's lips, before laying down with the younger on top of him.

"Why don't we rest for now? You look like you haven't been sleeping. I love you."

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so just like what i've said, i might end this book after a few more chapters. any thoughts on what i should do? hehe, tell me!