Don't Go (EXO Series II)

xiii

Everybody deserves a happy ending, right? This time, will Kris finally have his happy ending?:)

_____________

xiii

Alexi Rei

I pulled our joint hands close to my body and started to cry the moment I kissed the back of his palm. This is killing me. Bakit kelangang ganito?

“Why can’t you get mad at me, Kris?” I sobbed, resting my cheek on his palm. “Why can’t you get mad at me for what I did?”

He looked at me and said nothing.

His kindness just kills me. “I’ve hurt you. Pero bakit ang bait mo pa rin sa'kin? Matatanggap ko naman ang galit mo. I deserve everything you’ll say.” I was staring back at him, pleading. “Mas nasasaktan ako sa ginagawa mo.” At humagulhol na naman ako. I just proved myself wrong for the decision I made.

He brushed the strands of hair that’s covering my face with his free hand and wiped my tears with his fingers.

“Kris! Ano ba?” Umayos ako ng upo and yelled at him. Walang tigil sa pagpatak 'yung mga luha ko. “Bakit mo ba ito ginagawa?”

Kris simply sighed and shrugged. “Because I missed you.”

“Don’t give me that!” I yelled at him. Binitawan ko 'yung kamay nya. “Sabihin mo sa'kin na galit ka, na nasaktan kita and you hated me for leaving you. Mas matatanggap ko kasi 'yun kesa sa pinapakita mo. Mas nadudurog ang puso every time you’ll smile and act as if I did nothing wrong!”

“Rei…”

I punched his chest repeatedly and cried. “Get mad at me, please!”

Ininda niya lang 'yung paulit-ulit kong paghampas sa dibdib niya. Paulit-ulit niya ring sinasabi ang pangalan ko, telling me to stop.

He caught my hands with his strong grip. “Stop it, Rei!” His eyes were filled with so many emotions. He held my shoulders and spoke. “Ano ba'ng gusto mong marinig?” He shook my body. “Oo, there came a point na nagalit ako sa'yo. I hated you for being so weak. But what can I do? God, Rei! Nilabanan ko ang nararamdaman ko para sa'yo. Nawawalan na rin ako ng pag-asa na makikita pa kita, o babalik ka pa. But my heart never failed. It never gave up. Dahil alam ko na kung anuman ang namagitan sa'tin sa lugar na 'to, totoo lahat ng 'yun. Natakot ka lang, and I completely understand. That’s why I gave you your space. I thought sa loob ng isang buwan na hindi kita nakikita, mawawala ang nararamdaman ko para sa'yo. But it never did.” A tear rolled down from his eye na agad n'ya ring pinunas.

Natahimik na lang ako. This was the first time I saw him cry and it breaks my heart knowing that it’s because of me and my stupid mistake.

“It never did, Rei.” Napahawak siya sa noo nya and heavily sighed. “If you only knew how broken I was. You left me hanging. Gusto kong kalimutan ka na lang. But no matter what I do, no matter where I go, I’m always reminded of you, your smile, your laughter, your wit.”

Then he looked straight at my eyes. My heart raced.

“Now tell me, is that what you wanted to hear?” Ngumiti siya at umiling. “I know it’s crazy. Sino ba naman ang maniniwala na nahulog ako sa isang taong dalawang linggo ko lang nakasama?”

At that instant, my body gave up. I ended up being caged in his embrace. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, Kris,” paulit-ulit kong sabi sa kaniya.

“Sshh. Stop punishing yourself,” he whispered in my ear. I felt him kissing the top of my head.