SELF [JEON JUNGKOOK]

thirty seven

baby girl: hey bubz

baby girl: wow i haven't called you that in like forever..

baby girl changed 'jeongguk💞' to 'bubz💘'.

baby girl: anyways

baby girl: can we talk please??

bubz💘: look who's texting at one in the morning now,,,

bubz💘: but sure baby

bubz💘: what's on you mind??

baby girl: a lot...

baby girl: i didn't respond to you because what you had said really got me thinking.

baby girl: why do i care so much about him if he hurt me??

baby girl: it's like deep down i know he's a good person and i know he's trying but i don't wanna let him in again if he's gonna hurt me.. you know??

baby girl: i've been treated badly pretty much my whole life and i promised myself that i would never end up like those who hurt me and now i'm slowly turning into one of those people and i don't want to..

baby girl: and you two were so close before i came into the picture and i don't wanna be the reason you guys aren't friends anymore..

baby girl: i don't wanna hurt him but i don't wanna get hurt either..

baby girl: jungkook, what do i do??

bubz💘: i don't want to be the sole reason why you forgive him. you keep saying that you don't want to be the reason why we aren't friends anymore but tbh you shouldn't be worried about our feelings, you should worry about yours. if you aren't ready to forgive him, don't force yourself to. if you rush it without thinking about it for awhile you might get hurt and i don't think either of us want that..

bubz💘: when you make that decision i don't want you to worry about me and taehyung. focus on your own feelings so that you can make the decision that is right for you. not for me or for taehyung, for you.

bubz💘: i don't want you to feel obligated to apologize because you feel the way you acted was wrong. you shouldn't apologize because you feel that the way you're feeling isn't valid because you have every right to express anger towards him since he said things that hurt you.

bubz💘: i just want you to make the right decision for yourself..

baby girl: thank you for always being there whenever i need you, i honestly appreciate and love you so fucking much and i have no idea what i'd do without you..

bubz💘: i love you so much

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i have no idea what im writing anymore,, sorry if this doesn't make sense i wrote this late at night and it's not edited so !!