Today is the most hardest day of my life it's Raul's funeral. It has been so tough for all of us to accept that he's not here. I still can't find myself believing he's gone. It's so surreal.
As promised, revenge was done. Two nights ago one of the homies tracked down the guys that were with Montana the night of the shooting. Diablo and I in specific went to that location and hit them by surprise with ak-47's. Just this morning we got confirmation that they died just what they deserved.
Speaking about Diablo he hasn't been able to cope with the loss of his best friend. Since the day at the hospital, which by the way was about a five days ago, we hadn't seen nor speak to each other because in situations like these he likes to deal with it alone. We did see each other for Raul's revenge and that's it. He looked and acted so much different though but I know that we need to take another serious talk about our relationship.
It's early in the morning and I'm getting ready at Melissa's house. I've been staying with her since everything happened. I think that out of all of us she's been having it way tougher. The night after we left the hospital she confessed that she was three weeks pregnant with Raul's baby of course. Sadly he left without knowing it.
"Hey," I said as I entered her room.
She looks up from the picture frame she was holding.
"Remember this picture?" she ask showing me.
I smile at the picture of her and Raul together in her quinceanera.
"How could I forget? He was the one that introduced me to Diablo that night," I smile eyes tearing. "Melissa I haven't been able to tell you this but I'm sorry I'm the reason he's gone-"
"Shut the hell up," she said fiercely. "Nothing was your fault. You went back to help them when you didn't have too. You risked your own life for his. And most importantly you did him justice and that Ronnie is something I will never forget."
I breakdown crying and she takes me into her arms.
We stand there crying for a minute then she grabs my hands and says, "Ya! I promised him I wouldn't be sad nor would I cry."
I quickly wipe my tears, "good it's not good for the baby neither. Are you ready to go?"
She nods.
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The funeral service was now in motion. A lot of people including my family were here. The only person missing was Diablo I kinda expected it. Just like I didn't want to see Raul in a casket I'm sure as hell he wouldn't be able to handle it neither.
There was a pastor praying for Raul and his family. The entire time everyone around cried devastated for the loss but no one cried as painfully as Lorena. The pastor finishes the ceremony and it was time to give a last goodbye to Raul before the burial began. I decided to wait until he was buried I can not bare seeing him lifeless. That is not how I want to remember him.
I walked back to the car away from everything.
"Why did this have to happen to you carnal! Why you!" I scream looking at the sky.
I feel two strong arms hold me before my knees I turn around and see that it's Diablo. I hug him tight and begin to cry. Never have I ever seen him cry until now. We stand hugging each other for awhile letting our last cries.
"It's okay baby," I whisper in Diablo's ear. "I got you."
We decided to wait in my car for everyone to leave because he wanted some alone time with Raul. Like I expected he told me he wouldn't be able to stand seeing everyone in so much pain. Not much time later everyone began to leave.
