All everyone talked about was either about Diablo leaving or Melissa and I getting in a fight but mostly, the last one. Even though it's been a couple days since it happened, no one stops talking about it.
Yes, it was a shocker even for me. Melissa and I never got in a physical fight. Verbal, yes, but never physical.
Not only did I have enough hearing all this talk about me but everyone is giving me the cold shoulder. Why? Because Melissa had to be hospitalized for a night and labeled like a hero when she told everyone she wasn't going to press charges because she was a real "friend".
Bullshit.
Anyways, right now I'm on my way to the trap to meet up with Ricky to discuss business then he's taking me out for dinner. Like I said, everyone is giving me the cold shoulder but he's been there for me. We've gotten a lot closer these last couple of days.
In a way he's helped me deal with Diablo leaving because in all honesty, I loved him, I really did. I guess Melissa's right, karmas a fucking bitch.
I even poured my heart out to Monica, to fucking Monica, and begged her to tell me where I could find him but even she didn't know. She was just as heartbroken as I was because he left her with their child.
Just as I grabbed my keys from the kitchen getting ready to leave I hear Clumsy coming downstairs. I knew it was him since we're the only ones in the house right now.
"Hey Clumsy I'm-" I paused in confusion once I reached the living room.
He was standing by the staircase with a small suitcase in one hand and holding a single key in the other.
"What are you doing?" I asked with my heart breaking a little more.
He looks down at the ground. "I'm leaving and-"
I don't even let him finish. "You're leaving! But- but why?"
"You know why," he mumbles.
"Because I don't say sorry to Melissa? I swear each day that goes by I'm starting to hate that fucking bitch even more!"
"See!" he shrieks. "I'm starting to dislike you even more! She's done nothing wrong to you Roni but you have and you can't even apologize to her about it!"
"What have I done? What do I apologize her for?" I yell now getting angry at how everyone is treating me.
I expected Clumsy to understand that I was hurt that night.
"You beat her up. She had to stay at the hospital for a night and now she can't even get up to feed her fucking son," he grit through his teeth.
There was nothing else I could say but laugh. Yes, I'm laughing. I'm laughing at his dumb excuse to move out, at his statement about the fight. No matter what I say will change his mind about things but it's all good.
Without saying anything else I aggressively take the key from his hand and form a bitter smile on my face. "Take your shit and leave then. Furniture and t.v. stays. Lock the door when you leave."
Before I could walk out my own house I take one last look at him, "I've learned my lesson about taking in the homeless. They will never be grateful. Now run along to your friend ,I bet she already misses you kissing her ass."
And I shut the door with a loud thud.
*
Twenty minutes later, I was in the trap house with Ricky. Right away we get into business but I was barely even listening to what he had to say. I couldn't focus.
The way I talked to Clumsy, ugh, I just keep fucking up. I didn't really mean what I said to him, did I? Of course I fucking did, I think to myself.
"Baby?" Ricky jumps me out of my thoughts.
Yes, he calls me baby. No, were not official but we do mess around I guess.
"Hm?"
"You okay?" he asks concern.
I nod and he gives me a look knowing I'm lying.
"Let's take a break." He leads me to the couch where we sit, my head leaning on his shoulder.
"Now tell me," he starts. "What happened, baby?"
"Clumsy moved out because of the whole fight thing," I whisper tears forming. "It feels like the whole world is against me. The dirty looks won't stop and I just keep losing more and more people I'm close too. Geo barely wants to talk to me know and-"
"You got me though. Just ignore those motherfuckers. They're taking Melissa's side because they don't know your side of the story," he replies.
"My side is just as bad as it makes me look, Ricky."
"She wanted to throw down, you didn't. It's her fault, she got what she deserved."
"Yeah I know but I knew I could beat her from the beginning," I pause lowering my voice. "When I had her pinned down I should of just let her go but I didn't, I kept going."
"You were mad because you lost him," he said referring to Diablo.
I nod letting a tear shed, "I lost him a long time ago but I was too dumb to notice. It makes me mad that he's the reason I let out my anger on Melissa."
He holds me tight kissing the top of my head.
"I don't get how anyone would want to leave you," he mumbles in my ear.
I smile as I tighten my arms around his waist, "thanks for not turning your back on me."
"I will never."
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A/N:
Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed! Please let me know what you think about this chapter!
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