Today is the day Melissa is throwing Legend his fourth birthday party. I was supposed to help her out setting everything up but after what happened last night with Diablo I barely had any sleep. I was worried knowing he was out there driving drunk but thankfully Melissa texted me and told me he crashed at her house.
I spent all night thinking about Diablo and came to the conclusion that he really doesn't love me no more. I mean we've been together for almost eight years maybe he's bored of me and wants some new bitch or maybe even Monica. I try to not think about it but I can't. This is really the end of our relationship and it breaks my heart because I still love him. I love him so fucking much and the thought, no, the reality is that he doesn't love me anymore, at least the way I want him too.
It's a little past the afternoon and I'm barely getting up to feed the boys. Little Austin also slept so late playing with toys and watching cartoons so he barely woke up.
Diablo did text me this morning telling me to look after him for awhile and that he'll pick him up later. What kind of father just leaves his son just like that? It's his responsibility.
"Okay Austin, what do you wanna eat?" I ask him as we both walked into the kitchen.
"Um I want french fries," he replies in his tiny voice.
I let out a giggle, "you ate some yesterday."
He laughs, "they were so good!"
"Okay fine I'll get you some fries but lets ask the others what they want okay?"
"Okay."
We find Geo sleeping on the couch still. His dumbass should be at work right now but since he did help me move out I'll let this one slide.
"Aye bro," I said shaking his shoulder.
He wakes up instantly. "What time is it?"
"It's time to wake your ass up. Austin and I are going out to eat we're leaving in twenty minutes if you want to come. Where's Clumsy at?"
"I'm right here," he said coming down stairs.
"Hi Chris," Austin waves calling Clumsy by his real name.
"Wassup little man?" he smiles carrying him and tossing him in the air.
"Don't break him, he's not mine," I tease making him laugh.
"So where you going? I was thinking about going to Ihop," he says.
"It's Ihob now idiot," Geo comments.
I laugh, "yeah I'm down let me just get my bag. Watch him for a bit."
I run upstairs.
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After we ate Ihop, yes I know it's Ihob, but I refuse to call it that. Anyways after we ate we ended up going to the mall because Geo had to buy an outfit. While we were there I ended up buying myself a completely different dress a better one actually and I also bought Austin something to wear too. Of course I had to call Monica to make sure it was okay and she was totally cool with it.
When we got home we all jumped into action and started getting for the huge party. First I changed Austin into his gangsta kind of outfit. It was a simple white tee with jeans and his converse along with a bandana tied on his head which he loved. He looks so fucking adorable.
After he was ready it was my turn. Of course I'm feeling kinda down with the whole situation with Diablo but at the same time it motivated me into going all extra. Like I mentioned before I'm in love with fashion so I did a have a little fun.
