Soulmate AU's (Hamilton)

Therapy (Jamilton)

"Are you saying we can't talk?" Thomas asked. 

"Are you saying, we're not...talking?" Alexander asked. 

Thomas huffed "what're you saying?" He said, slightly irritated.

"What're you saying...? I'm saying..." Alexander took a dee breath. "I feel bad that you feel that you feel bad about me feeling bad about you feeling bad.." he said the words hesitantly, this time actually fearing a fight with Thomas. 

"About what I said, about what you said about me not being able to share a feeling..." he held out feeling awkwardly, running a hand threw his hair and looking down awkwardly. 

Thomas was having none of it. "If you had thought was that I hadn't thought about sharing my thoughts then my reaction to your reaction to my reaction," Thomas crossed his arms, scowling, "would have been more revealing." He cut the 'g' sharp, and Alexander looked up.

"I was afraid that you'd be afraid if I told you that I was afraid of intimacy!" He tried to defend, throwing an arm out. Thomas scoffed. "If you don't have a problem with my problem maybe the problem's simply co-dependency!" Alexander finished, putting a hand on his hip. 

Thomas let out a snort. "Yes I know that now you know that I didn't know that you didn't know that when I said no I meant yes I know and that now I know that you knew..." he faltered, "that you knew you adored me" 

Alexander sighed, "I was wrong to-"

"Say you were wrong to-" Thomas intervened 

"Say I was wrong about-"

"You being wrong" Thomas finished again. 

"When you meant to say that-" Alexander tried, fumbling with his hands 

"The ring was the wrong thing to bring" Thomas said, staring at the ring on his left hand. 

"If I meant what I said when I said rings bore me!" Alex said, sighing angrily. 

They both looked at each other, and very loudly, both shouted: "I'm not mad that you got mad when I got mad when I said you should go drop dead!" At each other. 

"If I were you when I'd done what I'd done and I'd do what you did when I gave you the ring having said what I said!" Alexander cut Thomas's next words off. 

"I feel bad that you feel bad about me feeling bad about you feeling bad about what you said about what I said about me not being able to share a feeling! I thought you're gonna react shallowly, when i reacted to you! I'm not mad you got mad!" Thomas turned away from Alex as he ranted, crossing his arms. Infuriated, Alex added: "to drop dead!"

 He froze momentarily, remembering how the whole fight had started. "If I were you when I'd done what I'd done and I'd do what you did when I gave you the ring having said what I said." He said, and went on for more, but Thomas turned around abruptly, silencing him with one glare. 

"I feel badly about you feeling badly about ,e feeling badly about me feeling badly about you!" He shouted. "If you thought was that I hadn't thought about sharing my thoughts, then my reaction to your reaction to my reaction, would have been more revealing!!" Thomas tried again. 

"I'm not mad that you got mad when you said I should go drop dead!" He screamed, gripping at his hair. Alexander needed to realize that, get it through his thick skull. "If I were you but I'm not you, I said what I said!" Thomas screamed, looking down at Alex. He was fuming. 

"Well now its out in the open." Alex growled, moving into Thomas' personal space. 

"Now it's off our chests." Thomas growled. 

"Now it's four am and we have therapy tomorrow!" They both screamed at the sky, frustrated. 

"It's too late-" Alex began

"-to screw!" Thomas shouted after

"So lets jut get some rest!" They both screamed, stomping off to their respective sides of the shared bed, and angrily flopping down. 

Thomas buried himself under the covers, shoving his pillow over his head. Alexander was on top of the blankets, gripping his pillow so tight his knuckles turned white. 

Jesus... Alexander thought, can't wait to go to therapy tomorrow 

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