Forbidden - [ Prinxiety / AnxietyXPrince ]

Chapter 13

( Same Warning As The Last Two Chapters; Hints Self Harm )
Just want you to know, I love you all, and I don't know what I'd do without you.

Prince's P.O.V

Thomas hasn't been well recently. I don't know how really to describe it, but he's not like himself.
It's Thomas and Anxiety.
I need to talk to him and figure out what is going on. The image still haunts my mind, appearing at the worst of times.
When I'm trying to rest, when I'm waking up ( if I even sleep that night ), basically all the time.
It's because I don't have answers. I want to know what made him do that. What encouraged him.

Because I want to help.

I want to do it for not only Thomas, but for the first person I actually had feelings towards. Yes, I'm meant to follow the rule, but I think it's time for it to change. Let people talk to who they want too..!
Wait, Anxiety could be dead right now and I wouldn't know it. I wouldn't get to say goodbye.. No! I can't think that way. He's fine. Everything will be fine. I hope..

I'm the prince. I'm happy, positive, outgoing, I'm not meant to be thinking and feeling like this. I'm the embodiment of his happiness, meaning I should be happy myself. ..right?
What if none of this is worth it, though?
I might never get to talk to Anxiety again.
I might leave this world with our last words to each other sad ones...

Ugh. I just need to clear my mind of all this..

"Hey, Love..! Wanna come over and watch a movie?" I ask nervously.
"Sure! What movie?" Love replies, linking arms with me and starting to walk back to my room after closing his door.
"I was thinking..Beauty and the Beast..?"
"Yesss! Absolutely..!" He smiled widely, making me giggle in response.

Love plonks himself down on my bed when we arrive. I take the movie off my shelf and put it into the T.V, humming a song quietly to myself. Love apparently recognised the song, because he mumbled along the lyrics with me.
I started the movie, sitting down next to him. "Let's do this."

Thomas' P.O.V

I'm sick. And I don't know why. I've been eating healthy..! ..-er. Healthier than I usually do! I've been going out for a walk ever day or so. I don't understand.

Right now, I feel like I'm about to throw up. But I can't since some friends are over right now and we're watching a movie. 'Why not tell them I don't feel well?' I hear you ask. Well, I've been telling them that for 2 weeks now, and they'll think I just don't want to hang out with them. Therefore, losing my only friends and being forever alone.

Why am I so anxious all the time now? What's happened to me?! Even YouTube is stressful. What used to be fun and happy is now making me nervous with questions like; 'What if my viewers don't like the video?' 'What if they think I'm fat?' 'What if I mess up and I lose my job forever..?"

I hate this...

Hey! I made the Prequel..! First chapter is up, I hope you like it if you read it. If not, I understand.
I hope you enjoyed this chapter as well, and please tell me if I can improve anything.

Also, guys. Depression as J.D, Anxiety as Veronica, and Prince as someone who tries to get with Anxiety. Not like Kurt and Ram, just a new person. To make it interesting, I guess..? I don't know. I'd probably write something like that.
*coughs awkwardly*

Bye!