Take Me Home, Ground Control

Maybe Getting Binder

Hi there!

How are y'all doing?

I'm doing alright. Somewhat. I'm under a lot of pressure.

I just need to uh
*screeches loudly into space*
Okay I'm good it's all good

Warning for talking about body stuff!

Anyways, I might be ordering a binder soon. I'll probably get a gift card and ship it to a friend's house. Maybe I'll be ordering a packer too. I occasionally panic a little bit about where my dick went then realize I never had one, it's kinda funny and really embarrassing to me. I like those moments when I forget about my chest. I love the rare times when I actually pass and people I don't know call me something masculine. I hope that happens when I have a binder and packer. I know a lot of AFAB choose not to use packers for a lot of reasons, but I want to try it for my dysphoria.

Also I'm looking for legal rights to compete as a boy for sports and maybe use the men's locker room. It might be a while on the bathroom and locker room thing for a lot of public places, but if I can get a good packer and STP that would help me so much. Especially for school and sports stuff and generally being in public. Like to have a penis in my pants and be like WHY YES I AM A MANLY MAN I EVEN PISS WITH A REAL DICK would feel nice. Wow, if you'd asked me what I'd be saying now a few years ago I never would have thought that.

I want to get swim shorts and wear a binder for swimming and I might be the first trans person to use my local pool so we'll see how it goes. Hopefully I can find a way to bind and pack for swimming and wear a dude swim suit because that would be really nice. Ughhh I probably have to come out to coaches and stuff too.

I wanna make this the year when I perform as a musician as me. Because I'm certainly not a girl and performing as one doesn't feel right.

Ughhhhhh I want a flat chest and dick!

Love ya,
Carter
He/they
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