Take Me Home, Ground Control

Passing at Pool

Yooooooooo

If y'all have name ideas I'm still looking <3 c:

DYSPHORIA TRIGGER WARNING!

I still want to present as masculine. That hasn't changed.

I want a binder and a packer and a haircut because I'm on a swim team. I'm not out to my team except for one person. I'm still competing as a girl and that sucks. I wish there was a way to compete as a guy without legal issues or to compete as nonbinary but that category would have about two of us in it.

I wear a women's swimsuit. In a swimsuit, it is clear that I have chesticles. It is also clear that I am presenting as feminine because it's a fucking women's swimsuit. It's very clear that there's no dick in my speedo because I'm not in a men's suit and I don't have a packer or penis. Fuck. On the plus side, it's also clear that I haven't shaved anything in the past year. Which leads to some stares and questions because apparently I look like a girl and girls apparently must always shave their legs.

I want to wear a men's suit with a packer and a binder. Then it's like a swim shirt and shorts. With a nice dick in between my legs.

I just want a packer. I could live without a binder for a while, but a sock isn't exactly going to work underwater. AND I NEED A FUCKING HAIRCUT. Ugh.

Has anybody tried swimming with a binder? Have you tried swimming with a packer? Have any of you tried packing? Any advice for me? You can message me if you don't feel comfortable commenting stuff.

Ugh. I'm not a girl. I wish people could see that.

Stay strong, friends.

Love ya,
This person
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