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"I think I love her, Dan..." Phil shrugged. That sentence struck a nerve within Dan. For years, it'd only been them. It'd only been platonism and nothing more. Now that Dan has realized that he was in love with Phil, he'd been in love with another girl.
Dan nodded. "Okay," He'd attempted to keep a neutral front. His fear and jealousy spoke for him even though he tried to bite his tongue. "But you only think you are. Maybe you're not." He shrugged. He knew he sounded so cold, but Phil felt it in his heart.
He was clueless as to how he should feel. Mad? Sad? Confused? His response was a mix of it all. A confused, "Okay, fuck you then?" with a sad expression on his face as he angrily left the room.
Dan sighed, wishing he'd pushed his feelings further away. Phil was impressionable as well, so he was going to express this to his crush. Dan knew that Phil would now have that doubt just because he had said that. "You only think you do..." Dan mumbled. "I know that I love you." He left the lounge, going to his room, closing the door. All he did was cover his head with his sheets.
The next morning, Dan awoke to Phil slamming the door open. "She actually wanted me, Dan." Phil growled. He'd been crying for hours, unbeknownst to the sleepy Dan. "She wanted me and I wanted her and I fucked it up."
Dan felt terrible that the man he loved was feeling so guilty, Little did Phil know that Dan felt plenty of times more guilt than he had. "You didn't..." Dan sighed. "I planted a seed in your head, making you rethink your decision to love her."
Phil had forgotten about how well Dan was with fucking with people psychologically. "But... Why?" Phil asked, filled with hurt. The sound of it hit Dan with a pang in his chest. "Why did you do that?"
He hadn't planned on telling Phil anytime soon, but he couldn't ever lie to him. "I-I gave you the bad advice because I love you. I love you too much to see you in her arms." Dan sighed. "I'm selfish, only want you to myself. But, Y/N makes you happy and you should be with her."
Phil scoffed, "You love me, so you wanted me to hurt before I considered you?" He asked. Surprisingly, Phil had hit the nail on the head. Dan stayed quiet. "Okay, seriously, fuck you, Dan."
As Phil left, Dan sank back into his bed, tears slowly leaving his eyes. "God, I'm sorry." He went back to sleep, but not without crying loudly, pissed at how much he'd fucked up.
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Dan and Phil Imagines and One Shots
FanfictionImagines about Dan Howell, Phil Lester or Phan. There will be no FIC stories in here ok? I think the Phandom has been scarred enough. Update: There is one. OOPS. **As of April 30th, 2017 this book has been placed on an official hiatus, indefin...