"Enough!" Dan yelled. "We cannot do this anymore, Phil!" He was filled with all of this anger toward me, and I didn't understand why. I was about to lose the man I wouldn't ever want to let go.
"Dan... They keep pushing this, I know. And answering sexuality questions isn't helping anything." I sighed. "But what's so wrong about saying something? Letting them know that I may be the only guy you're attracted to? What's wrong with admitting that?" I asked, putting a hand on Dan's, hoping to calm him down. He swatted me away and stood up.
"I. Am not. Fucking. Gay! Phil, I'm not gay, you're not gay. Why are you forcing me to stay with you romantically when you and I know damn well that it'll never, fucking, work!" He yelled. Dan lashed out and punched a hole in his wall. I jumped, standing up from the end of his bed.
"Gay isn't the only sexuality where homoromantism is a thing..." I whispered, taken aback with pain and hurt. "Why are you doing this?" There were so many question I had that I couldn't fill.
Dan sighed, running his hands through his hair. "Phil, we can't be anything more than friends..." He said, looking up at me. His facial expression dropped as he stood in front of me and rose a hand to my cheek. I'd been crying. I was losing my best friend. My boyfriend.
I looked into his coffee brown eyes, my heart aching. "Please, Dan... Please don't leave me... I-I can fix this. I'll act less public with you, I'll bro it up. I-"
I was cut off by his sweet kiss. The last kiss I may ever get from him. "You, you don't have to change. I don't want you to change. It was just something that would never work. Everyone has their eyes stuck on us. Imagine if they knew about this? This relationship, this break up. Everyone would choose sides. 'Do I stand with Dan? Do I stand with Phil? Who broke whose heart?' The Phandom would crash and burn. And I, personally, can't watch that happen."
I had been looking down since he broke the kiss, but at this point, I rose my head to lock eyes. "So it's ok to watch me crash and burn, Dan? The one who helped you find your passion? Your best friend?" I couldn't take the conflict anymore. I went to my room and locked myself in. I cried silently, I refused to let Dan see how I felt.
I ended up going to bed, the next day, I filmed the story about my breakup with a girl named "Lucy" and how she legitimately forgot about me. Once I uploaded it, I ordered in a pizza. Dan came to my door an hour later with it. "Did you make up that story to cover up the fact that we broke up?" He asked.
I ate a slice of pizza. "Why, when the Phandom didn't even know we were a thing?"
I took the pizza box into the kitchen and then sat in the lounge watching Death Note. Dan just went to his room and closed the door.
I know it hurts now, but we'll be fine soon.
Inspired by an AO3 story I'm reading :)
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Dan and Phil Imagines and One Shots
FanficImagines about Dan Howell, Phil Lester or Phan. There will be no FIC stories in here ok? I think the Phandom has been scarred enough. Update: There is one. OOPS. **As of April 30th, 2017 this book has been placed on an official hiatus, indefin...