Dreams Only Last For A Night - (Jalex)

Chapter 23 - In The Chill Of Your Stare I Am Painfully Lost

Well, hello there c: it's been awhile. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter ~

Jack's POV

I drove by Alex's house a few times after school, (creepy, I know) trying to gather up enough courage to go knock on the front door but I couldn't even find myself to even pull into his driveway - which to my surprise was empty and that only raised my suspicion of the thought I had earlier about Alex having moved back to England.

After awhile I pulled up, yes. Did I get out, no. I just stayed in my car watching his house from afar like some kind of psycho for what seemed like forever. Gahhh, I'm so fucking hopeless and just down right pathetic; if you were to look up the definition of the word there'd be a picture of me right under it and under that would be my name in big bold capital letters, that's how unreasonably pathetic I truly am.

I did manage to muster up enough courage to dial his number and after a few agonizing minutes later, I pushed the call button then pressed the phone firmly against my ear only to hear that all too familiar voice telling me that he had changed his number.

All I could think was- it's Hayley all over again.

It felt like a kick in the stomach to me, I was devastated, let down by yet another person who I practically gave my everything to, including all my love, only to be hurt and abandoned yet again. What hurt most, was that Alex knew how badly Hayley had affected me. He knew everything, every painful, embarrassing detail. He despised her very being but yet to my dismay, did exactly the same thing.

After that, I decided to just give up because I'm obviously the only one who gives a fuck about other people. I started up my car and headed straight for home; 'cause really where else would I go? I'm pretty sure I don't have friends anymore - not that I even talked to them about my problems to begin with - and Cameron is way too busy with Tay now to even remember that I even exist.

Everything is slowly falling apart and it's only because I couldn't tell my best friend that I loved him more than just a friend. It's all my fault. There's no use in going back to try an fix what's already broken and in pieces; I don't even got all the pieces to put everything back together again so I should just cut my losses and face the facts - I've lost him.

x

Halfway home, I got this sudden urge for some coffee and decided; why not? It's cold and I could use some sugar, not entirely sure why but I thought it'd might also cheer me up a bit, too.

Today hasn't exactly been eventful and I wasn't in such a hurry to get home to my oh-so-smothering parents, knowing they'd actually want to sit down and talk about my problems with me. I was privileged in a way on that sense; my parents actually wanted to be there for me but I wouldn't let them. It scares me to death actually, having to pour your feelings out to people but my own parents? Man, I have issues. I'm just a very private person and I like to keep to myself a lot, I just prefer to be left alone when it comes down to it (healthy I know).

I took the next left and got there surprisingly quick as I pulled in to try and find a parking spot, there seemed to be a lot more people here than usual it looked but than again they have very little parking space for customers considering how small the shop is.

One of the cars had finally decided to pull out and I immediately parked in it's space turning off the car and getting out, the cool breeze instantly making contact with my pale skin as I made my way to the front of the building.

Walking through the big, shiny glass door of mentioned building, the tantalizing aroma of fresh coffee filled the air of the all too familiar space as I walked up to the front to place my order.