Dreams Only Last For A Night - (Jalex)

Chapter 3 - "If These Sheets Were States"

Jack's P.O.V.

Following the path that leads to the back of the library, when the strongest scent of weed filled the air. Walking passed the huge tree bush, I soon see smoke also filling the air and followed it hoping it would lead me to the girl, but at the same time a part of me hoped it wouldn't.

The closer I get the stronger and stronger the fumes from the weed gets, I can hear voices coming from around the corner.

"So, who are you meeting here again?" I hear a male's voice say.

"A friend." Was the girl's answer.

I decided that I just better get this over with and see what she wants, so I made my way towards them.

"Hey Jack!" I heard as I looked up to see the girl and the guy that was with her was, Oli? Ok, I found that a bit odd 'cause I haven't seen him since he dropped out last semester.

"Um, hey." I said with a confused look on my face, 'cause one, I had no idea who this girl was and two, I had no clue why Oli was here right now. And with her.

"So, I should probably introduce myself." She said.

"Yes. That would help, a lot." I said still confused as fuck.

"Ok, well I'm Sierra. Sierra Kusterbeck, and this is my boyfriend Oli Sykes."

Um, what?!?!! I thought to myself in disbelief.

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Alex's P.O.V.

I walked into the library and took a look around but didn't see Jack, so I went out the back door of the library because I was already so close and didn't wanna cause attention to myself for the people in the library trying to study. I made my way to the back of the library and all of a sudden I hear voices coming from around the corner.

"So why did you wanna meet me here again?" I hear someone ask.

"That sounds like Jack." I said quietly to myself before peeking around the corner, but all I could see was Sierra? And Oli?

What?

I couldn't see the other person who was standing with them, but I'm pretty sure it was Jack. But why would Jack even be hanging out with Sierra and Oli? And why is Oli even here? I haven't seen him since last semester when he dropped out.

"I need you to do something for me?" Sierra said.

"Like what?"

"Nothing to bad or anything. I just need you to... sell this bag of weed for me." She said putting out the bag full of weed.

"What? No way!" Jack said.

"See babe, I told you he wouldn't do it. So let's just find somebody else who doesn't have the same lady parts as you." Oli said flicking the weed stick he had finished smoking.

Jack stood there for a moment before saying "Yeah, and you should also go find someone else who actually gives a fuck."

"Ok, fine. Never mind, I'm sorry I asked." Sierra said.

"It's fine. I'm sorry I couldn't be more help." Jack said to Sierra.

Sierra just smiled before saying "It's ok. I understand."

Oli grabbed onto Sierra's hand gently and pulled, "let's go."

"Ugh, Oli! Ok, I'll see you in English class tomorrow Jack!" Sierra said.

"Ok!" Jack called to Sierra.

I quickly hid behind the bush next to me and watched as Oli and Sierra made their way back into the library.

Once the door closed I struggled to find a way out from behind the bushes.

Finally managing to get out from behind the bushes, I bump into Jack.

"Alex?" Jack said with a confused look drawn across his face.

"Hey, buddy." I said with a smile trying to draw the attention away from the fact that I just came out from behind the bushes.

But sadly Jack isn't that stupid, "Alex, what are doing in back of the library?"

"I should be asking you the same thing Barakat."

Jack just stood there silent for a few seconds before saying, "Just meeting up with some friends, that's all." I didn't believe him. Jack only hung out with the people that were at our lunch table everyday and they were all there today, except him.

"So, Sierra and Oli are your friends now?" I asked stating the obvious.

Jack didn't look surprised when I mentioned those two.

Maybe because he was really (secretly) friends with them, but he never wanted to say anything to me or any of the others about their friendship because... well, I don't really know why, but I know it's not good.

"Fine. Don't tell me." I said looking away. "But just know, they are no good Jack."

"You don't have to tell me what I already know." Jack said as he brushed passed me to get into the library.

Jack's P.O.V.

Why was Alex at the library anyways?! I questioned myself as I rushed to get the hell away from him and more importantly, the library filled of nerds.

And what the fuck was he even doing in the back of the library?! Shouldn't he be in and not out in the back of the fucking library?!?

Was he following me the whole time?

Gah, I'm so confused as to why he was there to begin with!

I just wish Alex would stop treating me like some little kid, and even worse... his little brother. Two years ago, I didn't mind calling Alex my brother, because in my eyes we were a lot like brothers. We'd tell each other secrets, we'd always tell one another how we felt, we'd joke around, play pranks on our parents and even sometimes on each other, and yes, like brothers we'd also fight, but we'd always managed to make up afterwards.

So looking back, Alex and I were never just best friends, we were brothers. He has my back, just like I have his. But also looking back, we were also so much like a couple. We'd make each other laugh, we'd lay in bed for hours exchanging stories from one another's past, we'd enjoy each others company and we'd also carve it when one of us were away too long.

I sat down on the little bench across from the library to wait for Alex, so I could apologize for being so angry at him for no reason and for also storming away.

While waiting, I begin to think a lot about the first time I began to look at Alex in a different light. I mean, I found it so adorable when I caught him singing into a hairbrush to Madonna, but it wasn't just that. It was basically every little single thing he did from there on out. From the "hey Jacky!", every time we'd meet up some place or just see each other somewhere, to the "what the fuck! You were totally cheating dude!", after every game I beat him at, was just perfect. I loved every second being with him and enjoyed seeing every inch of him while being with him.

Butterflies filled my stomach every time Alex came around, they still do, but just not as much. I knew it was wrong, I mean he was suppose to be my brother and yet, I was crushing on him. I couldn't express my love about Alex to anyone, which made it kinda hard because all I wanted to do was talk about how cute he looked today or how perfect his hair is.

I remember telling myself that being gay was ok, but being in love with your best friend who was a dude, wasn't ok. I didn't find being gay repulsive or anything, but I didn't find being in love with Alex repulsive either.

So why you ask. Why did I not from the beginning tell Alex how I felt about him. It's because, if I told him... he'd may not feel the same way and then it'd be so awkward between us, and if he did feel the same way then in the long road it may not work out between us and I know I'd be way too jealous if Alex were to begin dating again after we break up, which would lead to our close friendship possibly ending because of my jealously. So either way, our friendship is at stake to becoming over if he does or doesn't feel the same way I do.

So to me, I'm basically saving not just selfish me from heartbreak, but also our really close friendship, that I just can't bare to lose.

- Anita xx