Journal Entry:
I am frustrated but I must be strong. It is like my brain has 78 browser tabs open, trying to process everything.
So many things happening to my life around me on macro and micro levels. Worries, fears, hopes, dreams, predators to my family...concerns for friends and...
Too many systems running. Too much internal malware. My Brain needs to defragment. It needs a reset.
Why can't it be as easy as Control-Alternate-Delete?
Something needs to break. I just need a reset.
Your strong hands on my throat, cutting off the blood supply to my distractions.
Fingers probing, plunging, programming my body to flood for you.
Teeth on my flesh, pushing my buttons hard. Fast buckling knees, evaporating words.
Why can't someone shine a light and make me feel alive.
Everything in me is frozen by fear
I just want feel alive instead of this constant grey...
Just shatter me.
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In the margin he replied with three simple words-
So be it.
Fear courses through me. Trust in him is easy-
Facing myself is not.
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Under His command
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