Bungee jumping, cliff jumping, extreme roller-coaster rides; name it, I'll do it. Horror movies never frightened me. Not my parents, the police, not even death.
I like it. I'm a risk taker and an adrenaline junkie. I'm a self proclaimed bad girl ex...
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"How I'd love to get away from here and be someone else for a while in a place where no one knows or expects certain things from me."
— Libba Bray, A Great and Terrible Beauty
"TONIGHT. Pag-bibili sya ng pagkain or maliligo. I'll make a run for it. I'll just take my wallet and my phone and hope for the best."
"That's your plan?" Constance said on the other side of the phone. Tinawagan ko sya para humingi ng tulog sa pagtakas.
"Yup. And the sooner, the better. Bahala na, C. Hindi ko natalaga kaya pakisamahan yong lalaking yun. Alam mo namang hindi ako matiisin." Pagsang-ayon ko.
Kailangan ko na talagang umalis sa lugar na to. Feeling ko parati akong nasa panganib...na makakita ulit ng live show or makapatay ng tao. Nakakasakal, naso-suffocate ako.
Bata pa lang, mahilig na talaga akong mag liwaliw. I always get myself in trouble. Nobody expected me to graduate along with my friends. Kaya ko lang napapayag ang parents ko na hayaan akong magtravel mag-isa ay dahil narin sa tuwa nila. At least that's what I thought until nalaman ko na ang tungkol kay Pierre.
I know I wasn't born with a free soul or this overwhelming thirst for fun and excitement. Naaalala ko pa kung gaano ako ka matatakutin noon. Ayaw na ayaw ko talagang nanunuod ng mga horror movies, kasi hindi ako nakakatulog sa gabi. But I always end up watching the same movie again, and again, and again hanggang sa mamemorise ko na ang buong movie at hindi na ako takot.
In a way, para ko naring naisahan ang takot ko.
When I got older, tumatakas ako sa amin sa gabi para pumunta sa mga parties or sa mga bars. I was still basically a minor so I use fake ID's. I have more fake ID's than I can count. Kung hindi ako tulog sa klase, nagcu-cut class naman ako. Naibangga ko ang kotse na neregalo sa akin ng parents ko for my eighteenth birthday, two hours after I received it. Then have my license terminated after that. I had my first DUI at eighteen too, right after I got my license back.
At nineteen, I almost got arrested for the most ridiculous reason. At twenty, I started collecting men just to show off. Those men don't get anything from me but the fame that comes with being my boyfriend. Jupiter Renaud's arm candies all belonged to a social class. I have standards. Handsome, rich and brainless. One night out with them and the next morning they'd be all over the news.
Constance sometimes calls me a socialite who's out of control. I couldn't agree more.
I love being on the other side of fear.
"I don't think that's foul proof, Pit."
I know she'd say that.
"So, help me. Ayaw ko na dito, Constancia, mamamatay ako sa sobrang boring plus my bodyguard is a man whore and the biggest jerk!" I exclaimed, throwing my hands in the air. Tumalsik yung hinihiwa kong saging kaya padabog ko itong pinulot at nilagay sa blender. Five minutes rule.
