A side of me you never found//alerrie

Chapter 1

Alex's POV
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The truth is I've always liked her. From that first day we became best friends we shared everything, but lately I feel distant, like we're not as close anymore.
Perrie is... well I think she is my best friend she has these gorgeous ocean blue eyes that I get lost in every time I look at her, blonde hair that falls perfectly, and the most amazing personality.
But she'll never be mine so why do I bother. I know she doesn't like me in that way, it's just hard to accept.
But even if she did it's only been a month since her break with zayn and I doubt she's ready for a relationship anyway.

Perrie's POV
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I wish they all knew. I wish he knew. But none of them do, they all think I'm torn apart about the break up with zayn, they think I'm beside myself and I can't deal with it, but in reality the truth is that it was all just a cover up. I never really loved zayn, I mean yeh we were friends but I didn't like him in that way. I just wish I could tell them all how I felt about Alex. I think the only person who i could tell right now is jade, she's been my best friend since we were born. Our mama knew each other so they'd meet up with us. She's the only one who can know. No one else just jade.

Perrie❤~ hey jade can you come over for a bit, me mams home and so is Caitlin but they're fine with you coming over xx
Jadey🤓~ yeh sure, sorry to be a pain but could I stay the night? I know we don't have school tomorrow so it's not a problem with me mam xx
Perrie❤~ of course baba, just come asap I really need to get something off my chest xx
Jadey🤓~ on my way perriewinkle! There's no stopping me now xx

7:30pm -perries house
Perries POV
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"Hey jade" I said as she came into my room, jade always lets herself in me mam doesn't mind. "Hey pez, are you alright?" Jade questioned as she sat down next to me, "yeh, um well no not really..."I mumbled to her,"is it about the break up pez? I'm so sorry for you, I know you loved him". "NO! I I didn't" I realised how harsh I sounded and my voice broke as tears streamed loosely down my face. "Hey pez, you can tell me anything you know. I thought you were still upset about zayn, I'm sorry if I upset you" she explained looking at me guiltily "no you didn't it's just I never really loved zayn jade" "what do you mean pez, of course you did, you were together for two years!". "I didn't, and I know but I need to tell you the truth but you need to promise me one thing and one thing only okay" "okay" she said. "Right promise you won't tell anyone" I looked her in the eye "I promise that I won't tell a soul". "So erm well basically ever since playgroup me, you, Alex, jesy, Leigh, Aaron, Jed and Claud have been best friends. But I always felt I was a lot closer to Alex than the rest of the lads, we've never been anything more than best mates but we've always always told each other everything up until I got with zayn" I confessed to jade. She took a moment and then looked at me "I know what you're going to say and you know I always knew you two were close, but I noticed that when you got with zayn you began to ignore Alex a little more each week", "I know and that's what I'm going to explain. So basically I realised when we were about 11 that I started feeling funny butterflies in my tummy when I was near Alex, and ever since then my feelings got stronger and stronger to the point where if he knocks me slightly I'll feel like fireworks are inside me, or if I catch his eye I'll get lost. And then it all got too much when we were 15, I'd been hiding in the open for 4 years and I couldn't do it so I got with zayn, to give myself a distraction. But the truth is now that we've separated, I feel worse, me and Alex are further apart than ever before, I've pretty much ignored his own existence for 2 years and he must hate me. But all I want is him." Jade looked at me in pity, she didn't know what to do. I could tell.

Jades POV
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I look away for a moment to think about what I'll say next. I know Alex doesn't hate perrie but I don't think they'll ever be as close as they were before. I turn my head slightly and notice that she's curled herself up Ito a little ball and the tears are streaming. She clearly loves Alex. I put my arms around her waist and lay her head on my shoulder, i wait for a while until she had calmed down and fallen asleep, it was a little early but I think she needs it. "Nanite pez" I whisper before getting my pyjamas on silently.
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Authors note- I hope you enjoy this first chapter. This one is very long as I wanted to get a few ideas out so I can think of more but the next few chapters shouldn't be as long as this one ❤ please comment any questions and let me know what you think of this chapter!