A side of me you never found//alerrie

Chapter 16

Perries POV
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I felt a warm kiss in my forehead. I opened my eyes slowly to see Alex sat next to me perched on the edge of the bed, "you need to get up now baby, we got you an early appointment" he whispered.

"How much sleep did I get?" I asked i sounded husky and bunged up.
"Well you got about 50 mins extra from when you first woke up babe, I know it's not much but, you need to get ready for your appointment" he said

I got up slowly and began to get dressed, I had my blue skinny jeans, and my Versace jumper, I then redid my hair in a new ponytail and put on a bit of concealer.
Alex was now getting dressed but he told me to go get something to eat.

I walked down the stairs and went into the kitchen, "how you feeling perrie?" Alex's mam asked giving me a hopeful grin, "I don't feel sick anymore but I have a headache" I replied, I was still so tired, I could have done with sleeping in all morning.

"Toast?" Alex's mam asked
"Please" I replied, I was hungry for much more than just rust but I didn't want to seem rude by asking for more, she was already going to the efforts of housing and taking care of me and I was so grateful for that.

I was sitting on the bar stool at the breakfast bar eating my toast when I felt a warm pair of arms creep around my sides, "how you feeling baby?" Alex asked planting a kiss on my lips, "nervous" I replied, I had no idea why I kept feeling so ill, apart from the fact that I have a shitty immune system, and that I could be pregnant. I don't even know.

"Pez we need to go now your appointments at 9, we only have 15 minutes to get there" Alex said.
I stood up and put some shoes on, then I walked upstairs, I picked my phone up to see I had a message from jade

Jadey🤓-hey pez, hope you're okay babe, was wondering if you'd like to come shopping with me after lunch xx

Perrie❤- Morning bubba, really sorry, I'm not feeling great again. I was throwing up everywhere this morning at Alex's, we've got a doctors appointment in ten mins but I'm not sure what's wrong, and I'm gonna have to go home and tell my mam whatever it is xx

Jadey🤓-pez you should have text me, I would have come and sat with you! Awe I hope you find out what's wrong. But you don't think you could be pregnant do you? I mean you've slept at Alex's enough Xx

Perrie❤-if I'm pregnant it's not Alex's, we've not had sex, just lots of hugs and kisses. If I'm pregnant it's zayns. I don't think I am though xx

Jadey🤓- just be prepared for anything babe ❤ you're one strong cookie, nothing will break you. Whatever happens you've always got me, Alex and Aaron, can't count on the others right now but you've got us baby xx

Perrie❤-thank you babe, I'll let you know how it goes xx

Alex's POV
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Mam was waiting for me and perrie In the car whilst pez was getting her phone and coat.
She came downstairs and she was texting jade again, I swear they never stop texting but hey ho they're best friends.
"Pezzabear, we need to go baby, the appointments in ten minutes" I said.

"Ugh, okay sorry" she groaned, "woah, what's up?" I asked
"I'm fucking nervous Alex, what do you think is up?!" I could tell she was stressed from the way she was talking. "Hey, calm down baby" I cooed, "I can't fucking calm down because I'm shitting myself in that nervous. Why do I have to go and fucking ruin everything Alex? Why do I always ruin everything!" By this point she was in tears, leaning against the wall. Mam had come in to see if we were okay, she'd heard everything.

Perries POV
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'I'm such a fuck up. I ruin everything. It's always me. I'm stupid. I never do anything right'

That's all I could think about- how stupid I am, what I'm doing wrong.

I couldn't believe what I'd just said, now Alex was going to think I'm weak, he's probably going to hate me. Alex's mam had heard everything i said, I looked at Alex, he had his head against the wall. I was so mad that I'd snapped at him.
Then I looked at his mam, she looked at me sympathetically and I covered my face with my hands, she walked towards me and wrapped her arms around me, "perrie do you want to talk?" She asked, I nodded my head, I needed to talk to someone and I feel like she was the right person to talk to. "We need to go but we can talk after honey, okay?" I nodded again.

I went and got in the back of the car, I wasn't sure if Alex would sit in the front or the back, I know he's annoyed with me.

Alex's mam came out and sat in the front of the car, she turned around, "how are you perrie?" She asked, "I'm fine" I replied, that was a lie.
Alex locked the front door and sat in the front seat next to his mam. I thought about how much I longed to be next to him and the tears started falling down my cheeks as I looked out of the window.

Alex's POV
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I was going over everything that pez had said, I couldn't help but think that it's my fault she feels that way about herself. I clearly don't tell her how amazing she is enough, if I did she wouldn't keep calling herself those things.

We arrive at the doctors and get out the car. Perrie Walks over to me "I'm sorry Alex." She says bluntly. "Hey, its fine, you have nothing to be sorry for baby" I said.

"Yes I do, I snapped at you when you were just trying to be nice, I'm sorry I keep putting you through all this stress" I stepped closer to her and gave her a hug, "let's just forget about this for now and go in okay" she nodded in agreement and we walked inside.

We sat down for about five minutes before the doctor came out, "perrie Edwards" she said.
Perrie looked sick to her skin, her face was as pale as a ghost, suddenly she became weak.

Perries POV
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I began to walk through the door weakly, Alex and his mam came with me. I walked into the doctors room and sat down on the chair, Alex and his mam grabbed the two spare chairs and sat a little further away than me.
"So perrie what seems to be the problem?" The doctor asked me. "Well I um I keep waking up early in the mornings feeling sick, and then I throw up for a bit and I also have a lot of headaches." I replied, as I was talking she was making notes on her notepad.

"Right well, what you are describing seems to me like more of a morning sickness" she said, "so I'd like you to do a pregnancy test first to get it out of the way and then I can do a few other tests" she handed me the box with the test in it.

All I had to do was wee on the stick. Wee on the stick, come on perrie you can do this, it's easy. But the truth is, it wasn't the task that made it hard to do, it was the fact that I had to be prepared for the result.
I finally did it, the doctor said to wee on it and then take it back to her, but I wanted to know first, I didn't want her to find out before me. I waited for 15 minutes in the toilet cubicle and I looked at the test. I read the box to see what the symbols meant, it said that the symbol ++ means I am pregnant and --means I'm not. Right, here goes. I look down and see the ++ symbol, I felt like my whole world had come crashing down infront of me.

I heard the toilet door open, but I kept the cubicle locked. "Perrie?" I heard Alex's mam say. I needed someone so I unlocked the door whilst I sat on top of the lid of the toilet, my cheeks stained with tears, holding the test in my hand.
She looked at me and gave me the 'are you pregnant' look, I merely nodded before she ran over to me and gave me a hug.
She grabbed my hands
"It'll be ok perrie" she said to me as I broke down in her arms...

A/N
Thank you for being patient with this one! I really like this chapter and I hope you all like it too xx <3