A side of me you never found//alerrie

Chapter 8

Perries POV
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It had been around 20 minutes that I'd been sat drinking my water and watching all of my friends dance, I'm such a party pooper, the only sober one and the only one that's not dancing.
I noticed jade walking over to me, I looked up at her curiously
P: "jade are you ok?"
J: "I was going to ask you the same question"
P: "why?"
J: "because you usually drink a lot more and you're always up for a dance"
P: "I'm just not feeling great babe"
J: "Not feeling well? Or just not happy?"
P: "both, I've got the most banging headache ever, and I can't stand hiding my fuckin feelings anymore"
J: "why don't you tell Alex?"
P: "how am I meant to tell my best friend that I love him more than he'll ever know?"
J: "I don't know pez, I don't know"
P: "anyway, there's no point in telling him if he doesn't feel the same way"
J: "you don't know if he feels the same way though"
P: "that's what I mean. If he doesn't feel the same I'm not telling him. He's too good a friend to lose over this"
J: "well the only way to find out is to tell him"
P: "I'm so fucking messed up jade, I've ruined everything. If I tell him, I lose him. If I don't I'll be like this all the time. Why me? Why is it always fucking me!" I broke down into tears as I told jade everything about how I felt
J: "hey pez calm down please babe"
P: "I'm fine, I'll have to be"
J: "jeds on his way over, don't look too upset, he'll question you."
P: "what's wrong with that"
J: "do you want him to know?"
P: "no"
J: "exactly"
P: "I'm gonna head home now anyway, I still feel ill"
J: "you sure, will you be ok getting home?"
P: "yeh I'll be fine, I'm not drunk anyway"
J: "bye pez"
P: "see you Monday babe"
With that I began to walk to the door, I looked back to see if I could spot Alex as I wanted to say bye to him, but he was dancing around and having fun with Aaron and Claud, I caught his eye as I turned my head towards him, I gave him a weak smile before continuing to leave through the large door at the front.

Alex's POV
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I turned around and looked at perrie as she left, her eyes looked sad and puffy as though she'd been crying, but she still smiled at me, I could tell she still felt ill as she was very pale. I decided to leave about 10 minutes later, I thought that if I walked quick enough I could catch up with her and we'd walk together.

Perries POV
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I decided I'd go the long home, through the alley way, I needed the fresh air to clear my head.
As I got closer to the alley I began to think about Alex again, we walk through it on the way home from school sometimes after jade has gone inside as it's at the end of her road. "Awh! Fuck sake perrie!" I yelled as loud as I could without hurting my throat. I turned to go down the alley but I could see a shadow of a sharp figure
P: "hello" I said hoping for an answer
I heard nothing so took a step further
P: "who's there?" I questioned, I presumed no one was there and I was imagining it so carried on walking, as I got further down the alley I felt warm breath on my shoulder.
Z: "hey babe"
P: "zayn! Get the fuck away from me you creep!"
Z: "hey pez chill! I just want to say that I miss you, and..."
P: "forget it zayn, I don't miss you. And anyway I love someone else"
Z: "as i was saying before I was interrupted. We never got that night we were hoping for did we ?"
P: "what night? Oh my god I just want to go home zayn, you're so pathetic"
Z: "you know the night where I walk over to you, join our lips together and make out..."
P: "I didn't want that zayn"
Z: "but I did, I still do and I'm going to get what I want!" He said grabbing my tiny waist and pulling me closer towards him. I immediately froze, I didn't know what to do, I could feel my heart beating out of my chest, the tears forming in my eyes. He pulled down the sleeves of my play suit and continued to take it off me until I was left in just my underwear, I was freezing.
Z: "you ready for this baby"
P: "get off me"
He didn't, he slipped his hands into my panties and pulled them down, he undid his pants and slammed me up against the hard brick wall
P: "ow!"
Z: "what? You can't take it wimp !"
He played around with my nipples as I struggled trying to get free from his grip, then moving down he put his dick inside me and started to grind on me. I couldn't stand it!
P: "HELP HELP HELP!"
Z: "I'm not done Edwards"
He pushed me over so I was lying in the cold concrete, and then straddled himself over the top of me, he began moving faster and faster, if wasn't right
Z: "ew. Why you so tight?"
P: "GET OFF ME! HELP ME PLEASE!!" I screamed as loud as I could

His hands gripped around my waist leaving bruises all over me, zayn pulled my legs apart making me much wider.
Z: "we'll sort you out! You won't be right any longer.
He shoved three fingers in straight away as I winced in pain, I begged him to stop but that only made it worse, he then got four fingers in moving faster and faster until he could see I couldn't handle anything more.
Z: "you deserve everything you're given Edwards"
He whispered as he put his whole fist inside me, hitting my spot every now and then, I was so sore, I didn't know what to do, I couldn't shout because of the pain I was in. He quickly pulled his fist out as I came all over his hand, he licked his fingers
Z: "job done. Now to find a new project"
P: "GET AWAY FROM ME YOU DICK! YOU'RE A DISGRACE TO THE WORLD!"
He ran off leaving me lying almost naked with only my bra on in the dark alley way.

Alex's POV
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I could hear screams and cries coming from the end of jades road, I decided to go down towards the alley as that's where I thought it was coming from.

I walked further down into the middle of the alley to find perrie lying on the floor, almost naked with cuts and bruises all over her fragile body. I immediately dropped onto the floor and help her sit up, she screamed in pain crying her eyes out in fear
A: "shhh perrie it's ok"
P: "it's not Alex!"
I wondered what had happened, she was clearly attacked, but why naked
A: "I know you probably not want to talk about it but what happened?"
P: "zayn"
A: "zayn did this"
I said pointing at her cuts and bruises
P: "zayn did more than just that"
A: "what, what's he done to you?"
P: "h. He rap. He raped me Alex"
A: "I'm gonna kill him for this!"
P: "no! He said he's done with me now, there'll be nothing else"
A: "ok. You'll be fine perrie, you have all of us"
P: "yeh but I also have to face him" she said, she was still wearing nothing but a bra, her body shaking in shock, fear and pure cold.
A: "where is your underwear perrie?"
She pointed to the other side of the narrow alley and I spotted them in the floor, I leaned over and picked them up. It was strange but I had to do it, for her. I passed them to her and told her to put them on.
A: "come here"
She nudged up towards me and leaned into my chest, I could feel her heart beating but she was still shivering.

Luckily I'd taken my large hoodie with me, it was big on me, so would work well as an oversized hoodie for perrie, I took it from my waist and slipped it over her head, she poked her arms through the holes and snuggled back into my chest. I put my arm around her and we sat, for at least two hours, she was curled into a ball with her knees resting on my thighs, her head on the top of my chest. I could feel her warm tears falling constantly on my thin white shirt. It got to 11 pm and I decided we needed to go home and get sleep, I figured she wouldn't want to explain to her mum and sister so I took her back to mine. My mum was fine with her coming up to my room, I had a double bed so it was fine for size. Perrie had no pjs so I left her in my hoodie. I got my shorts on and got into my bed, she sat back in the same position she was in when we were sat on the floor. It must be the only way she's comfortable with all the bruises and cuts that she has. I watched her fall asleep. Thinking about how I longed to be with her. My mum had phoned Debbie and let her know that perrie would be 'on the sofa' and she was fine with her staying over. I suddenly thought that I hadn't let jade know what happened
Alex⚽️-hey jade, I didn't really want to have to message you but I think you should know that perrie was raped by zayn tonight on her way home, I found her lying in the alley at the end of your road. Sorry to have to let you know😞 she's okay she's asleep now, but she's staying at mine so she doesn't have to explain everything to Debbie and caitlin. And also, I've not told any one but I trust you not to tell, I really really like perrie and I mean I love her, she means a lot to me. I'm sorry I had to tell you but I wanted you to know xx

I sent the message and sat thinking about what her reply would be, I decided she'd be asleep so decided to get some rest myself.

I looked at perrie sleeping, she was restless and moving around but she looked as gorgeous as ever.

I just wish I could tell her how I felt.

A/N
Sorry I took a while to update, this one took me a long time to write as I got a bit carried away with the story. Thank you to everyone dm for being so patient xx