A side of me you never found//alerrie

Chapter 17

Perries POV
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"Come on, let's go back perrie, they're waiting for you" Alex's mam said to me as she walked me out of the toilets.
I could feel my legs shaking and the tears falling down m face as I walked, her arm linked to mine as a support.

We got back to the room, I opened the door and went and sat down on the chair. "So would you like me to take a look at the test for you perrie?" The doctor asked, "no. I mean no thanks, I already looked" I said, "but perrie, now listen. I told you to wee on the test and come straight back to me, you should listen to what a doctor tells you." She said in a stern voice.
"Oh stop with the pettiness please" I rolled my eyes, "I didn't want you to see if I was pregnant before I did, okay, what's so hard to understand..." i realised I had gone off track a little so I toned down, but then the thoughts clouded over my mind, the tears came back, so did the headache. Everything was falling apart.

Alex leant forward and rubbed my shoulders to comfort me. "When can I go?" I asked, "well, you are about five and a half weeks so I'd say you need to think about whether you are going to keep the baby or not" the doctor said to me.  "Well I think I need some time first" I replied, "okay so I'll book you an appointment in about six weeks an we'll get in touch" she told me.

We left the doctors and got in the car, Alex sat in the back with me the whole time. The ride back was silent, not awkward but a comfortable silence, comfortable enough to allow me to calm myself down.

When we got back to Alex's he went upstairs for a few minutes, I went into the kitchen and got myself a drink.
I heard Alex running down the stairs, "pez, I said I'd go round to Azza's wanna come?" He asked me. "Erm no thanks I need to go home and tell my mam" I replied, he gave me a kiss and told me everything would be ok before walking out the door.

"Perrie, do you want to talk now?" His mam asked. I nodded and went and sat on the sofa in the lounge.
"Perrie, you can trust me ok. And I'm not going to lie to you about anything sweetie. But you are honestly one of the strongest girls I've met, everything that you've been through and you've managed to put a brace face on through it all. I don't understand why you think so badly about yourself, you're amazing, talented, smart and funny, and the best thing that's happened to Alex. I feel very strongly that you are basically a part of our family now, and I will support you through anything that you do ok?" Alex's mam clearly knew what it was like to feel like I did, I mean doesn't everyone, we all have stages like this, but my stage seems to have gone on for longer than expected if I'm being honest. "Thank you, I think I'm going to go to jades and then go home, so I'll see you soon" I said to her

"Bye perrie" she said

I walked in jades house, said hi to Norma and then went up to jades room.
I walked in to her room and shut the door, thank god jed wasn't there.
I slumped down on jades bed and sat next to her. "Hey pez" she said, "hey" I groaned, "what's up?"
"What do you think?"
"Hmm? What pez are you ok?"
"No! Jade I need some help! I need some serious fucking help! I'm fucking pregnant with that assholes baby!"
"Seriously, omg pezza come here" she cooed whilst pulling me into a tight hug

"Jade, I don't know whether to keep it or not. I mean this baby is alive, it's not an object it's a human. But it's zayns and I don't want the memories of what happened that night following me for the rest of my life. I'm scared jadey"

"I know pez, but you know what you should do first?"

"What?"
"Tell your mam babe, she'll comfort you, and she'll help you make the right choices, anyway, who else knows?"

"Erm, you, me, Alex, Alex's mam and the doctor"
"Alex's mam?"
"Well she took us to the doctor and she sat and had a nice long motivational chat with me when we got back"

"Okayyy."
"Thanks jade, I'm gonna go home and tell my mam now, I'll text you later babe"

With that I walked down the stairs shouted bye to Norma and walked home...

A/N
In the next chapter she will tell her mam, and might let the secret slip when she shouldn't