A side of me you never found//alerrie

Chapter 13

Perries POV
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I decide that I would go into school on Thursday as I felt much better than the mother days. I still wasn't eating properly, I couldn't handle it, after barely eating whilst I was ill I feel like I still can't eat a lot of food before getting full. I looked at my phone to see if jade had replied to my earlier message
Jadey🤓- so so glad you're feeling better perrie! I've missed you loads. Alex is walking today as well so he said if you walk up to his and then you can both come to mine and we'll go from there xx
Perrie❤- how come Alex didn't tell me he was walking? Xx
Jadey🤓- he didn't think you were coming in babe, he thought you'd take the whole week off school xx
Perrie❤- ah ok, thanks jadey 😘xx

I set off walking to Alex's, I couldn't wait to sing him my song, I was going to surprise him at lunch by taking him to the music studio and then I would play and sing it for him. It was going to be perfect.

I got to Alex's and I knocked on the door. His mam came to open it, "Perrie! How are you feeling sweet?" She asked me, "I'm feeling a lot better thank you" I replied. "Aw I'm glad to hear, Alex has been so worried about you, he didn't even want to go to school this week. He wanted to go to yours and sit with you" she told me, I giggled before replying "that's lovely, well I've been home alone all week anyway because Caitlin's been at school, and the rest of them are away" .
"Perrie. Do your parents know you've been so ill?" She questioned. "Erm, well I told them I wasn't feeling well on the phone but they don't know how Ill I actually was" I answered, "you should have come and stayed with us sweetie ten you wouldn't have been alone"

"I'll keep that in mind for next time, thank you" I replied thankfully to her.
Alex came downstairs ready to go, "hey pezzabear" he said as he walked over. He grabbed his coat, turned around and smashed his lips onto mine "I've missed you babe" he murmured just loud enough for me to hear. "Alex!" I giggled and felt my cheeks blush, I knew his mam was still watching but he didn't know she was there.
"Alright lovebirds off to school, you don't want jade to get angry do you?" His mam said whilst tapping him on the shoulder. Alex realised she was there and began to blush a lot.

He put his arm around me and lead me to the door. "I love you" I whispered to him as the door was shut behind us.
We held hands all the way to jades house, when we got there she was already outside waiting, she spotted us and tapped her watch sarcastically. "One sec Alex, I'll go get her" I said and ran over to jade. "Sorry we're late jadey, Alex decided he wanted to snog infront of his mam!" I said loudly enough for him to hear, "only joking he didn't know she was there" I added.

Jade walked on one side of me whilst Alex walked on the other side, we talked the whole way to school and they both caught me up on everything I'd missed.
When we got to school me and jade had a free period but Alex had his football training. He gave me a hug and kiss, "see you in a bit Edwards" he yelled as he walked away.

"Oi oi! Pezzas blushing" jade said whilst standing next to me. I gave her a gentle smack and rolled my eyes, we decided that we'd go and sit in the student lounge because I still wasn't the best and I couldn't be in the cold long because of my shitty immune system (which is probably why I got fucking Ill in the first place).

When we got to the lounge jade went and got us both a hot chocolate, and then we sat on the sofa. I decided I'd play the song to jade first to see if she thinks Alex will like it.
"Jade will you come into the small room with me?" I asked (the small room was always empty)
"Erm yeh, why?" She replied, uncertain of why I wanted to go in there
"I just want to show you something" I said.

Once I made sure the door was shut I told jade all about what I was going to do, "oh my god perrie that's so cute!" Jade said

Jades POV
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Perrie told me that she had made a song for Alex and that she was going to sing it to him at lunch. "Pez? Can I hear the song?" I asked. "Duh! That's why I brought you in here jadey" she replied.
Pez walked over to the other side of the room and picked up her spare guitar (which she always left at school) she started playing the tune of her song before starting to sing it as well

I'm alive, and living's just a beating heart
'Cause we won't admit we've taken it too far
I know it's love cause I will always be the first
To start making up excuses when it hurts

Oh my god this is gonna be so good I thought to myself as she sang the first part

But I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone again
And all I want, all I want is to feel again

There's nobody like you, nobody like you
I've tried goodbye a hundred times, not one of them true
Nobody like you, nobody like you
I'm screaming "I don't want you" but you know that I do

Strong, a side of me you never found
'Cause you only see me when my guard is down
And it's wrong, and I hate that it's the truth
But I only like myself when I'm with you

But I'm alone, I'm alone, I'm alone again
And all I want, all I want is to feel again

There's nobody like you, nobody like you
I've tried goodbye a hundred times, not one of them true
Nobody like you, nobody like you
I'm screaming "I don't want you" but you know that I do

Oh, I wanna feel you in the dark
I could use, I could use some
But all you left me with was scars
And that's the hardest part
There's nobody like you, nobody like you
I've tried goodbye a hundred times, not one of them true

There's nobody like you, nobody like you
I've tried goodbye a hundred times, not one of them true
Nobody like you, nobody like you
I'm screaming "I don't want you" but you know that I do

Nobody like, nobody like, nobody like you
Nobody like, nobody like, nobody like you
Nobody like, yeah, nobody like you
Nobody like, nobody like you

I could tell just how much perrie had expressed her feelings in this song, one of my most favourite parts was where she sang 'I only like myself when I'm with you' because I know that's how she feels with a lot of people

"Wow pez, it's amazing! I've never heard something that's so honest and truthful before" I said to her, "do you think Alex will like it?" She asked me. "He'd be a dick if he didn't perrie" I said back to her.
She giggled before coming and giving me a hug, "thank you jade"

And with that our free period was over, god it went quick. I guess lunch will be me azza and Jed today.

Our friendship group has pretty much split into two, jesy, Leigh and Claud don't really seem to care much for the rest of us, I mean none of them even asked perrie how she was after the incident, and also none of them asked her if she was feeling any better than the other day. I feel like they only care about themselves, they're so up their own arses and I can't deal with it anymore.

And then there's me, perrie, Jed, Alex and Aaron, I feel so sorry for Aaron, he used to be really good friends with leigh but he stuck up for perrie a while ago in an argument and then Leigh just blew him off, they've not spoken for six months so Aaron's been with us four a lot more, which isn't really fair on him because it's two couples and him.

A/N
In the next chapter pez will sing to Alex, sorry I took a little longer to update, I've got a really bad cold and a sore throats which is making me feel really ill.