Finding Mr Right.

Confession

     *Skyla's P.O.V*

We enter my room and we have nothing to say to each other.
Lex walks towards me and leans in for a kiss but i pull away.
He looks at me confused.

"Am sorry"

I say and quickly look away.
Lex fakes a nervous laugh.

"You know what?i dont get you sometimes,One minute you love me then you hate me-"

He paces around the room and turns to eye me.I look up at him and he continues.

"Like, moments ago,you wanted me to kiss you,to touch you and all of a sudden you are avoiding me,i sometimes think i love and care about you more than you love me"

"Alex"

"No,Skyla,i get it,if you dont wanna be around me anymore its ok,i'll leave,"

He starts to walk to the door but he stops short and turns on his heel.

"Before i go,i just wanna know if you love me or  feel the same way i do"

I stare at my feet in flip flops.
Did i feel the same?
Before i did as for now iam really not sure.

"I get it"

"Alex..I...i dont know if i do"

"Oh"

"No,i didnt mean it that way,I .. i just dont..Uurgh!"

I slam myself onto the bed,and lay still for about 10 seconds.

"Talk to me skyla"

"I like you,a lot,but i dont think am ready to take things to the next level."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean am scared,.."

"You scared? that am going to hurt you?like your jerky exes?"

His cute forest green eyes narrow a bit and i look into them as he lays next to me.

I shake my head no as i reach out my hand to touch his.

"No,not necessarily,
Ever since Carl and Ray happened,i have been scared of love,or loving"

He rans a very big hand through his hair and smiles.

"Its ok to be scared,Skyla"

"But if you really want to..i dont know,wanna get serious just promise me you wont hurt me and break my heart"

His hand stops running through his hair and he looks me in the eye.

"Trust me,I'll always be here for you"

He pulls me close to his chest and draws imaginery circles on my back helping me  cool down.

"I'll protect you princess"
He  slowly whispers.

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I roll over and bump into someone.
I turn and notice Lex sleeping next to me,shirtless.

I look at my clock and it was past mid-night.
I notice a table lamp on at the other end of the room.
My roommate,Andriana was busy studying.

So this is what she does if she aint being her dark self.
She claims she's a dark queen.Not evil tho,just too gothic,and is that my peach night gown?
Haha,she's secretly girly.

I feel Lex's hands wrap around me tightly.

"Hey,you are awake?"
"Yeah sorta"
"Its late,go back to sleep"

He says placing a peck on my shoulder bone.
I smile and point at Andry.

"Look at her,in pink"
"Thought she was the goth queen?"
"Secretly girly."