Finding Mr Right.

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#Not edited btw.

Sitting across Craig i felt so uneasy,I wanted to reap his eyes out with a fork for a start,but damn you metal detector!

"What is it?what do you want from me?"

He stared at me and I held his gaze.

"Heard you were sick,came to check on you"

"Oh,okay."I look away.
"Its been four months since i had my surgery." I point it out and quickly add as he was about to speak "and six weeks since i learnt that my family died in a fatal fire accident "

He was taken back a little,staring into my eyes as if trying to measure the depth of my pain.I was gone too,dead,and he saw it right through me.

"...i dont know what to say "He reached out for my hands. " you dont deserve this,you are only eighteen"

I shake my head drawing my hands back." nobody deserves this.Not me,or anyone else."

"It must be hard for you"

"Am surviving,that's what Nona would have wanted me to do.Survive"
I murmer and look away,catching the guy at the next table staring at me.We stare at each other for a complete minute before we both looked away.Something about him made me so uneasy.

"Its going to be alright,we're here for you" i stare at him and shrug.

"You wasnt here during my toughest times,were you?"I held his gaze till he looked away. "Now, what makes you think i can count on you now?"

"....Winter "I hold my hand up and he immideatly shuts up.I did not want another word from him.
He leans back in his chair and at the corner of my eye i catch the guy at the next table staring at me again.

"Will you quit staring at me!?" I yell than intended and he quickly looks away.I exhale slowly.
"Sorry,I've been stressed lately and my therapy aint working i guess...but...Sorry" he nods in understanding and i look back at Craig.

"Anyways...Russ is here,hey you've lost a couple of pounds,are you eating alright?"

"I know,i think its because of the depression,i havent been eating latel..y...what the fuck is he doing here? "

"He really wanted to see you,and I needed a ride,just talk to him,please?"

"No way,you tell him to stay away from me"

"Just hear him out,please"

"What do i say to him?Congrats i hear you're doing super fine without me?"