Finding Mr Right.

48

The moment i partly recovered was the moment i returned behind bars.I remember at one time thinking Russ' mother was my friend when she welcomed me at the Anika's engagement party,or whatever it was,but, nooo.During the first six months of my detainment she visited me behind bars and threatened me to stay away from her son,this is why,i signed the papers to give Grace away to foster parents till i've served my time and trust me that is the hardest thing i've ever done in my life.My Family never picked up the calls the hospital had been making on my behalf,as they claimed.Now back in my cell and Ruby is there,lying under cutthroat's covers,head burried into the pillow.

"Cherry Ruby?"
She doesnt look up at me and i walk into the cell,placing my box of prescribed drugs on my bed.
"Am back."

"Cutty is gone!"

"Wow,am so happy to see you too"I say sarcastically.

"Am serious"

"Gone where?"

"Just gone"she murmurs.

"Ok,you are creeping me out " i say getting onto the top bunk.

"She got a 30 year sentence with HL"

"Oh my god,that's aweful"

"...And she got transfered out to another prison"

"Are you ok?how are you coping up?"

"Oh that's not all there is to it,.." i feel her weight shift on the bottom bunk.

"She sliced her wrists,asked the doctors to use her heart for good and bled to death."

I was silent for a while,this was all too much to take in.hot tears were already running down my cheeks,tried to stop them,but guess i was too slow.
"Am sorry"

"Me too" she was silent and i could only hear my own wailing.
First,I give birth to a very beautiful premature baby that i thought had kicked the bucket right at birth,and worse of all i go through it alone,with just my two friends,not how i imagined beeing a first time mother.then i get a heart attack,then a new heart and then,my family is out of reach and i painfully give my daughter up and then i lose one of my closest friends?
Life couldnt get any worse.
"How's the heart?"

"What do you mean?" I wipe off my tears and lean against the gray walls.

"I mean...they gave you her heart right?she wanted you to have it"

My jaw dropped,Cutthroat gave me her heart?I burry my head into the pillow,an in just seconds my pillow was soaked as my tears couldnt stop flowing,this time because my heart was aching.Not because my ribs were healing or anything but because i was too fucking emotional this time.I cried myself to sleep that day,it was a good vibe knowing someone cared about me that much.

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In the morning,i made sure to avoid everyone as much as they avoided me,this made my life so easy.I sat alone at the table that  Ruby,cut and I used to share,back when days were better.Ruby didnt wanna have breakfast so i sneak the red apple on my platter into my jumpsuit pocket,i had lost atleast ten pounds due to the continuous sickness and depression so there was enough room for both the apple and my hand.

I quietly ate breakfast before noticing a shadow clouding my space.I look up.

"Hie Helgar "I say orange juice dripping from my mouth.

"I heard about your friend,am sorry"
I look up at her,you? you are sorry?alright.

"Yeah,me too"

"How are you doing tho?"

"My ribs are healing,i've had a rough time"

"I heard you were pregnant?"