Finding Mr Right.

27

After Winter's morning meds,we head out for a walk.

I have literally been at the hospital since yestermorning and i am as exhausted as fuck.
My mind was far away and a small tag on my upper arm makes me snap back to reality.

"Hey!you are walking too fast,you literally left me about 10 yards behind."

"Did I?.."my eyes widen "am sorry"

She looks up at me,her gray eyes narrowed,boiling into my bones,making me feel very uncomfortable.

"What?"

I say looking away while rubbing my eyes with the back of my hand.

She shakes her head,making me roll my eyes.

"Lets just go"

She tags my arm and drags me with her.

I mean i wanted to tell her about her pregnancy,that i know of now,and how her mom wants me to make her abort,i was literally panicking,this was all too much for one man to handle.

We stop at some café and she orders a papaya juice.

"What are you gonna have Babe?

"Yeah,sounds good"

She looks at me confused then back at the waiter,with a fake smile.

"He will just have the coffee,no form"

She stares back at me after the waiter had left us alone,scanning my face,and then the rest of my body so intimately.

"What's up with you?"

"I told you am good"

"U-uh,you are not telling something that you should tell me"

Curse my code of conduct,she knew me so fucking well.

I sigh out loudly through my nose,staring back at her,her eyes never leaving my gaze.

"You are so fucking stubborn"

I say and she shrugs.

"You made me this way,so what's up?"

"Your mom...."

And she rolls her eyes.

"What did she say now?"

"She cares about you,you know that?"

"No i do not"

"Well she does,spent all night staring and watching you sleep"

"So???that doesnt mean shit"
Another eye roll escaping her eyes.

"Dont you care about her happiness,i mean you are drifting away from her"

I say repeating the exact words she said to me,i noticed her eyes widen then shut back in disgust.

"I dont."
She said,a frown forming on her lips.
"She didnt care about mine"

"Remember what you said about my mom?"

"This is something different,Micheal"

"Not really tho"

"I mean,your mom has always been there all your life,she left for sudan,knowing you were fine,in safe hands,she even made sure she missed no event of your life,she still on your side whatever the case!"

She started raising her voice and noticed people in the café staring,and quickly lowered it as she leaned in,on the table.

"But guess what darling??my mom could give no shit about me"

She whispered and slowly sat back down into her chair,i sighed.

"You so stubborn,so fucking stubborn,like KUNTA KINTE,yes kunta kinte stubborn,i bet you are worse even."

She rolls her eyes again,still major turn on but i kept my shit cool.

"If your mom never cared she would never be here,or even ask me to ...."
My eyes widen upon realisation of what i had just said.

"Even asked you to what Micheal??"

I decide its of no use to argue with her or even try to hide it from her,but instead i let her know like that.

"She told me about your state"

"Did she ask you to leave me???cause of my heart issues???.."

Her voice was in a whisper but i could tell she was ready to blow up.

"...That beast,she so dead and am gonna kill-"

"Babe stop!"

I cut her as everyone in the café turned to face us.

"She talked to me about your pregnancy"

Her eyes widen and then she look away.

"Why didnt you tell me?you should have said something"

I whisper reaching out for her tiny hands.

"She lieing,there is no way am pregnant,iam just 17,"

"Its ok we'll figure something out"

"No..i take birth control injections"

I throw my headback,it now made sense,the needles in our bathroom bin,the papaya juice they all,made sense now.

"Ooh,ok.that makes sense i guess"

"She convinced you to let me abort isnt it?"

I nod my head yes,staring at the waiter who had taken forever to bring in our drinks.

"She needs christ"

The rest of the time was filled with us sipping on our drinks,no word,just nothing.

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