Finding Mr Right.

38

"Internet college?"

I turn to look at Russ who was leaning against the door frame.

"Uh yeah,i signed up for an online college...wa..it are you not happy for me?"

"Are You kidding me?am proud of you,why didnt you tell me?"

"Eeh,i didnt think it really mattered"

"Well it does"He says sitting next to me.I look up at him,placing my hand on his cheek.

"Am sorry"

"Its fine"he smiles kissing my nuckles.
I notice that Janice had walked in from the kitchen.She stops by the fireplace flipping through the pages of Russ' big brown book.

"Dont...do that!"
I say looking at her and she turns to look at me,looking so innocent.
Russ turns to find Janice standing by the open book.

"This is my personal business"he says shutting the book and she steps back.

"Geez!if its so private then why leave it lying around?"
She says defensively.

"Janice,just apologize to him"i say knowing Russ.

"Am so sorry"

He walks upstairs without saying another word and i follow him behind,stopping at the top of the stairs.

"Please switch off the bulbs before you leave the room"

I slowly opened the door to the room Revealing a stressed Russ.

"You ok love?"

He turns to look at me and i slowly walk into the room,closing the door behind me.

"Am..i..i dont know"

"Pissed?"

"Yes,am so fucking pissed!"

"Wanna talk about it?"
I wanted to get this over with before bed,he is scary when mad.

He just sighs looking at me and i walk to him.
"Come on,you need to let it out"
I say hugging him,my arms wrapped around his waist.

"What's so special about the book?"I say sitting down on the bed.
He was silent still and i was tired of his secrecy.

"Its nothing"he shrugs.

"Its nothing?really?Its not nothing if you lose it everytime someone is close to the book!"i say struggling with my raised voice.

"Just..stop talking about it,that's my business!"but there's no way am going to bed,without knowing what the book is all about.

"Would it kill you to just let me in!?"i say getting up from the bed. "Just this fucking once?"i say tugging his shirt at the small of his back.

"Just..."i sigh. "it bothers me,you know!"

"You Bother me!you fucking bother me!"

Russ grabbed me by my shoulders forcefully and pushed me against the bathroom door,his hands never leaving my shoulders.Thank god this door is a pull kind of door.
I must admit i've never seen Russ this furious,as much as I wanted to hug him and calm him down,i just couldnt.
I was fucking scared that i was very close to pissing myself and the heavy rains werent doing me justice in anyway .

"R..russ?"i say misserably
Trying to escape his grip.
He loosens his grip after seeing the fear that was evident in my eyes.

"I..i..."he takes a step back and couldnt find his words.Well we were in the same boat here.

I push past him grabbing my shoes and hastily kicking off his slippers.

"You cant go.."he says as i reached for the doorknob.
I ran down the stairs grabbing my clutch and phone from the little coffee table,dialing Skyla's number.