Camren - one shots

All i want

(Creds to grandefordemi )

All I want is nothing more

To hear you knocking at my door

'Cause if I could see your face once more

I could die a happy girl I'm sure

Lauren's pov

She left me. How could she? How fucking could she? She promised me she wouldn't leave. She told me she loved me. She lied to me. She told me she loved me and just left me. She didn't care. I hate her. I fucking hate her for doing this to me. I loved her - I love her. Why? Why did she leave me? Why did she do it? I want her back, I want Camila back, my Camz, my everything; I want her back. I want to feel her again. I want her in my arms. I just want to see her one more time, just once, but she's not coming back... She has to come back. She has to. I need to see her again - I need her - I love her.

When you said your last goodbye

I died a little bit inside

*Flashback*

"Don't come near me." Camila screams.

"Camz..."

"No don't Camz me. Leave me alone Lauren." Seeming as if she didn't just hear what Camila had screamed, Lauren takes a slight step towards the younger girl. "I mean it, stay away from me."

"Please Camz." the older girl begs, tears rolling down her face. What was going on? They had been fine and then Camila just changed. It's like she's a different person. This girl standing in front of Lauren isn't Camila, this isn't Karla Camila Cabello - the girl in which Lauren fell in love with. This girl was empty. She wasn't herself.

"No! Lauren, no!" The younger girl shouts, "Don't come near me." Ignoring what the younger girl has been screaming, Lauren carries on stepping towards her - slowly but surely moving closer. "Please." The younger girl begs in a barely audible tone. Backing herself up against the wall, the smaller girl repeats the same word over and over again. "No."

"Camila, baby, listen to me." Lauren starts. Camila stays in the same position as before -  her hands up against her temples, biting her bottom lip with her eyes tightly closed shut. Gaining a sudden load of confidence, the taller girl rushes toward the younger girlfriend. Both girls say nothing as tears fall down their faces. "Baby..." Lauren starts before noticing her girlfriend still had her eyes shut. Placing her of her right hand under her girlfriends chin, she begins to slightly lift her face so it was in line with her own. "Look at me Camz..." Lauren whispers. Camila obliques and opens her eyes slightly, staring into her girlfriends bright green eyes. The eyes that Lauren sees before her aren't the eyes she fell in love with. They're not the deep shade of brown that normally has her mesmerised, but a dark shade of brown that seems to have no depth behind them, no person, just empty. "I love you." The older girl states softly. "I love you." She repeats while staring intently into the shorter girls eyes.

"I love you too..." Camila replies as her eyes seem to begin to turn back to their deep shade of brown. This doesn't last however as quickly her composure is lost and she roughly pushers Lauren away from her. This isn't Camila - this ain't the sweet, cute, funny girl that everyone loves. This is someone else.

"Camila."

"Don't. Touch. Me" the younger girl growls.

"But...."

"No! Go away. Get out of my room. Leave me alone. I hate you. I hate you. Leave me alone Lauren."

"Camz.."

"No!" The younger girls screams. "I hate you, I hate you, I hate you" she repeats under her breath. Confused with her actions Lauren steps back.

"You don't mean that" she whispers, her voice slightly cracking.

"I hate you Lauren." Camila growls yet again before repeating the same three words over and over again. "I hate you." Hearing them words breaks Lauren's heart. The girl finally loses her composure and backs away up to the door, as far away from her 'girlfriend' as she can. "Leave" finally comes demanded from the smaller girl. She looks so fragile but not know what to do Lauren finally decides against fighting anymore.

"I love you Karla." She whispers before opening the door behind her and turning to walk out.

"Goodbye."

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I lay in tears in bed all night

Alone without you by my side

But if you loved me

Why'd you leave me?

Take my body

Take my body

All I want is,

And all I need is

To find somebody.

I'll find somebody like you.

Oooohhhh ohhh.

I just want to sleep with her in my arms again. I want to feel her skin against mine. I want to feel her breath against my skin. I want to admire her body again. I want to hear her voice again and her laugh that just makes me forget how to breath. I want to hold her again and feel her lips against mine. I want her to touch me again, I want to touch her again - to make love to her. I want to sleep with her in the most innocent way. I want to watch her doing her hair and makeup again. I want to see her stick her tongue out while she's concentrating again. I want to see her bite her lip again when she gets frustrated. It's all I want... I want my Camila back. I don't understand what happened. She told me she loved me. We loved each other, but she just left me. She left and she didn't tell me why. I want her back. I want Camila back - my Camila. She brought out the best in me. I don't think I'll ever find someone like her again. I don't think I'll ever be able to love someone as much as I love her, loved her. She's gone, forever. I'm never going to see her again. How did this happened? I need her next to me. I'm never going to find another Camila. I don't know if I could ever find someone to replace her. I need her embrace to feel safe. She made me feel safe.

So you brought out the best of me,

A part of me I'd never seen.

You took my soul and wiped it clean.

Our love was made for movie screens.

We were so in love, what happened? How did we end up like this? How did I lose her? How did she leave me? I never even got an explanation. I never got to say goodbye, in fact, I never wanted to say goodbye. I wanted my future with her - Camila was my future and now, without her, I don't see a future. I don't see myself being in love and having a family and growing old; I don't see myself being happy. I still see Camz in my future but that's not even possible anymore. She left me, she left all of us; Dinah, Normani, Ally, her parents, Sofi - everyone. How could she be so selfish? I hate her, but I still love her. She's my soulmate, my one and only. We were so happy together, we were so in love and now she's not here. She doesn't love me anymore. I know she loved me at one point, trust me, I know she did. We were so in love and when she told me she hated me, I know she didn't mean it. So why did she say it? I have so many unanswered questions that I'll never get an answer to. I need Camila.

But if you loved me

Why'd you leave me?

Take my body,

Take my body.

All I want is,

And all I need is

To find somebody.

I'll find somebody.

I love Karla Camila Cabello more than anything or anyone else in the world. She may not be able to love me back anymore but that doesn't change anything. She was my past, my present and my future - it was us against the world. And now I'm all alone and I hate her for leaving me but I still love her. She's all I need...

All I want.