Just a little bit of your heart

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I don't ever ask you were you've been

And I don't feel the need to know who you're with

I can't even think straight, but I can tell

That you were just with her

And I'll still be a fool

I'm a fool for you

For the fourth night in a row I was woken up by Lauren slamming the front door. I know what she's doing and even though it hurts I don't want to bring it up. I may not be the one she loves but at least she comes back to me every night. Well, I mean, she kind of has to. She doesn't actually come back here just for me; we all live here; Ally, Normani, Dinah, Lauren and I. She's obligated to come back here every night and sleep here.

Simons says we're not allowed to stay out all night because he doesn't want any bad publicity apparently. I mean, I agree with him, so do the other girl, none of us want to fuck this up and if one of us messes up we'll all be in shit - we're all in this together. This doesn't stop Lauren from going out every night seeing whatever bitch she's seeing that night - it's kind of hard to keep up when it's a different girl each night but at least she comes back. To be totally honest, I don't want to know who's she with, I don't even ask, as long as she comes back to me every night I'll put up with her shit.

She always comes back and she always makes her way up to our room eventually, no matter what. Even though there are two beds in our rooms she always comes and sleeps in with me. I like that side of Lauren; the one that will laugh at my lame jokes and flicker her eyes from mine to my lips and the girl who will cuddle up to me every night and calls me Camz. I love that side of her. On the other hand, I'm not that thrilled about the other side of Lauren - the side that will go out whenever she feels like it to see whichever girl she can and to see what she can get done with her. That is the side of Lauren I hate but at least I get some of her love rather than none.

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart is all I want

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit is all I'm asking for

"Lo?" I mumble as I feel the bed dip beside me.

"Yeah, it's just me Camz. Go back to sleep" she whispers against my ear as she drapes her arm over my waist. I lay still, her warm breath on the back of my neck. I can smell the vodka on her breath and I can feel her bare legs tangled between mine. She's not mine but I know she'll always come back to me; that must show she at least cares a little bit. She's just not committed to this like I am. I'm not enough for her but she loves me. I have a part of her heart and that's all I want. I turn my body round so I'm facing her.

"Lo?" I whisper, hoping she's still awake.

"Yeah?" She sighs in contentment as I play with her hair before striking her cheek. I lean forward and place a quick kiss on her lips before pulling away slightly.

"I'm glad you're here" I whisper as our lips brush together softly.

"I'll always come back Camz" she sighs as her breathing begins to settle. Her eyes are closed and I can tell she's half asleep. She won't remember this I'm the morning - she'll probably already be gone by the time I wake up.

"I'm glad because I like sleeping next to you" I smile.

"I like sleeping next to you too baby" she replies as her breathing becomes more even. Great. She's fallen asleep.

"I love you Lo" I whisper before closing my eyes and falling asleep myself.

I don't ever tell you how I really feel

Cause I can't find the words to say what I mean

And nothing's ever easy, that's what they say

I know I'm not your only

But I'll still be a fool

Cause I'm a fool for you

I wake up and feel a warm body pressed against mine. I fight the sun shining in through the windows and open my eyes. She's still here. Lauren's laying in front of me for once. She's not left yet. She stayed the whole night. I can feel my heart begin to race as I realise what I said to her last night; 'I love you Lo.' I can't believe I said that. I know it's true but I'd never say it to her. I love her but I don't know how to exactly express how much I love her. I don't have the words that will do my feeling justice and anyway she doesn't feel the same way because she's out with all these other girls - the only time she's with me is when she's sleeping.

As long as she comes back, even if it's just to sleep, I'm content. At least I owe a little bit of her heart. She loves me enough to stay every night and that's all I need. I don't care if I'm a fool. I just need her next to me and I'm perfectly content.

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart is all I want

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit is all I'm asking for

I know I'm not your only

But at least I'm one

I heard a little love

Is better than none

I go on with my daily morning routine because I don't know what to do with the sleeping beauty in my bed. As I finish in the bathroom and enter our room again I notice she's already gone. She left as soon as she woke up. I'm alone again. At least I know I'll see her again tonight, even if it's just when we sleep.

I know I'm not her only one - I'm not stupid. As long as she remembers me and sleeps in my arms every night then I accept that. At least she's chosen me to be one. She's chosen me out of a lot of people to share moments with and give a little bit of her heart to. That's all I'll ever need.

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart is all I want

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit is all I'm asking for

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit of your heart is all I want

Just a little bit of your heart (just a little bit)

Just a little bit of your heart

Just a little bit is all I'm asking for

I'm a fool for Lauren Jauregui.

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