My Tsundere

#21

Trence's POV

The tests have finally ended, but I never felt joyful at all. Ever since three days ago..

"NCS...don't talk to me ever again."  

...all I ever feel is depression.

"Hey Trence? You alright?" I got snapped back to reality when I heard Rin. I plaster a fake smile, "Were you saying something?"

She shook her head no. "Not really. I just noticed how profusely depressed-looking you are. Anything wrong?"

Everything is. "I'm fine. Let's get back to practice."

The day after tomorrow is the school festival and the performance. I'm not the slightest bit excited about it but everyone is, which is kind of refreshing. 

We sang our hearts out for this practice. Rin's voice is not at all bad, it's actually very angelic. We sang the classic ever since I didn't like the new version at all.

After we finished singing, Rin showered me with compliments and applause. I only smiled. 

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I walked home with an emotionless face. I couldn't think of any reason why Taileen suddenly didn't want to talk to me. I mean, not only that but she said "don't ever talk to me again", so why is she avoiding me? I thought the exchanging of sentences was prohibited, why is it that contact not allowed too?

I'm so frustrated, but I can't do anything about it!!

blag!!

Out of sheer frustration, I kicked the post.

"Why do you have to do this to me, Taileen?!!"

blag!! blag!! blag!!

"You know how I feel about you, right?! So why are you doing this to me?!!"

blag!! blag!! blag!! blag!!

"You're so heartless towards me...yet why have I fallen for that personality of yours?!!!"

blag!! blag!! blag!! blag!! blag!!

"And I want you so bad...so freaking bad...that it's killing me!!"

Before I knew it tears were rolling down my cheeks.

Maybe...

"I love you, Taileen! It's what's causing so much pain of just not seeing you or talking to you or hearing your sweet voice or seeing your glares or seeing your bright smile..." 

I stopped kicking the post. I looked at the impact of my kicking. I smiled..for the first time in a while.

It cracked a little....

I proved to myself that I'm not the only one broken. I'm not.

"Tss, you'll have to pay for that, you know?!"

I immediately straighten my posture. "Taileen?!"

I looked around and saw no one. I placed my hands on the post.

"I miss you so much that I'm hearing things..." I whisper and the tears started rolling down to my cheeks. "..if you were here..you'd be hitting me right now," I laugh. "But you aren't here."

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I walked back home to my house. 

I felt lonely somehow. No, I felt lonely again. 

Ever since she told me that, this is what always happens to me. Like I'm homesick, even though I'm home. 

I stared straight at nowhere. Feeling lost, as usual.

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Taileen's POV

"Hey Taileeeee!!!"

I looked at Rin. "..."

I got transferred to the first section because of my dad, so now I'm classmates with Rin. "How are you doing?"

"I'm fine."

She gave me a perplexed look. "Your face says otherwise."

"If I say I'm fine, I'm fine, okay?" I said in a low tone, slowly trailing off.

"Jeez! I'm talking to another grouchy person! Can't you believe this?" she said and let out a cackle of a laugh. "I'm going to get drinks. Want one?"

I shrugged. "Sure, I guess."

"Pepsi?" she suggested. I shook my head no. "Pocari."

She smiled, "Alrighty! I'm off!" 

When she left, I breathed a heavy sigh. Finally she's gone.

I stretched at my desk and closed my eyes. This is for Rin. I reminded myself in thought. She's your best friend, she's always done everything for you before, it's just payback. Besides, who cares for my happiness, anyway?

This is also for Trence. He doesn't actually like me, anyway. Rin is better, she's smarter, cuter, and this is her first crush. I don't want it tragic for her.

But isn't this my first one, too?

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