Ruined World (Camren, Jerrie, Larry)

Chapter 20

A/n after writing this chapter, I realized how messed up my mind is. Messed up to the point of having to put a warning. I don't really know how trigger warnings work but, there might be a big one here. Be careful.

Lauren drove up to Niall's bike and rode side by side with him, them both driving behind Jesy and Zayn's cars.

"Oh hey, uh, Lauren right?" Niall smiled glancing at Lauren for a bit.

"Yeah." She smiled back.

"Hey! I'm here too!" Camila and Ally purposely raising their voices as Niall and Lauren laughed.

"Yes, we see you." Lauren smiled.

"Good, you better. So, you're Lauren huh? You know Camila stares at you all the time." Ally laughed. "And I'm Ally."

"Ally! Lauren ignore her, she's just kidding." Camila blushed looking down.

Lauren too blushed but smiled. She looked at her side view mirror and saw Camila blushing at it.

"Woah, Camila got game." Niall laughed loud.

"Niall!!" Camila yelled again at him.

"OK OK, I'm done." Niall put his arm up then back down. "Anyways Lauren, you new here? Never seen you. Where you from?"

"Slow your horses, Niall? Your name is Niall right?" Lauren asked and Niall replied with a nod. "OK yeah. Well yes, I'm new and I'm from a different school a few miles from here. Came a few weeks ago."

"Cool." Niall said, "Uh, I'd like to know something about you two." Pointing at Lauren and Camila.

"Huh?" They said together.

"So uh, what's up with you two? I mean like, why are you guys cool and have powers when I don't?" He asked.

They looked at each other and Lauren looked back at the road. "Well, older people tell stories first, I guess, so I'll go." Lauren said.

"Go ahead." Niall replied, nodding towards her.

"It's a long story but, from the 2 people before coming to this school that I met that had powers like me, I'm not sure if Camila and the rest are the same but, I think that finding out about your powers is a kind of history thing. You gotta observe your history and you gotta go through some traumatic expierence at like 5 years old to receive them and find out about them. When Louis earlier told his story, my eyes mentally like, widened cause I realized that everyone had a past, a bad one. Mine was bad too. I luckily still have my family but it's like hell. When I was born, I can remember how happy my dad looked at me. He was smiling and was so close to crying tears of joy until he looked up above me to my mom. She was crying, not of happiness. When I turned to look at her, she was looking and staring at me with this murderous and kind of horrified look, like she was afraid or wanted to get rid of me. That was the only thing I remember from when I was a baby. I turned into a 5 year old and had a birthday party at my house and no one showed up. I cried a bunch and I found out that the reason why no one showed up was that they didn't care. I know my experience sounds normal but I haven't even crossed the worst yet." Lauren stared straight forward, eyes filling with black.

"It's OK if you don't want to tell us." Camila put her hand on Lauren's shoulder.

"No, I have to tell you guys. If I don't then I won't get over it." Lauren glanced back at her.

"Proceed then." She replied.

Lauren took a breath before continuing, "9 years of age I got my first kiss. It was nice I guess, the guy was sweet or so I thought. We knew nothing of dating much so we agreed on just keeping it secret. Days after, he asked me out and I was surprised because I never thought he would. I said why not and we went out to the park with his bicycle and my skateboard. We hung out with each other and he kissed me again. I started saying that I had to go and when I started walking away..." Lauren stopped.

"Lauren? It's OK if you don't want to-" Ally started.

"NO! I mean, no, I n-need to tell you guys." Lauren sniffed.

"He, sexually abused you Lauren?" Niall looked at her seriously.

"Yeah." She whispered out, almost inaudible, "He grabbed my arm and took me into the boys bathroom, started saying stuff like, 'oh don't cry, this is something that's required for guys' even though deep inside I knew he was just trying to do stuff to me that I didn't think he'd ever do. I was powerless. He pinned me to the wall and did things so bad, but luckily not getting to my pants. When he tried removing my top, I pushed him and ran but he got me again. Then he went to my pants and then the fire in me erupted, literally. I pushed him away so hard, he flew to the other side of the bathroom and I threw a punch at his face, continuing to punch him beating him up. The punches kept going and I got madder every time I punched him, my fists started to create a fire. I punched him with fire fists and I didn't care or care to notice it. I ran outside the bathroom went on his bike and took my skateboard with me, riding back to my house. I sneaked in through the back door so that my parents wouldn't notice me and my partially ripped clothes. I made it to my room and cried myself to sleep, thankfully the next day was Saturday and my parents wouldn't have to wake me up. I woke up the next morning at my clothes and changed and then I looked at my hands remembering how I made a flame and I did it again and from that day on I practiced with that flame. That wasn't the only traumatic experience I went through. My friend committed suicide, mom did drugs and dad was an alcoholic and beat me a lot, bullying, bunch of PTSD stuff I went through, diagnosed with depression, I was sold a bunch of drugs and took a bunch as an attempt to die, almost drowned, my boyfriend tried to kill me, my best friend back stabbed me, all my friends laughed and told the whole school that I was bisexual when I told them and trusted them, I cut a lot, attempted suicide at least 6 times already, I would've tried again after school today if it weren't for the world tearing down. And a bunch more stuff," She chuckled, "Has to happen to somebody right?"

"Lauren..." They were all at a loss of words.

Camila thought of her traumatic experience and how worse Lauren's were compared to her own.

"What do you know? We're here." Lauren slowed her bike down as Zayn and Jesy's cars slowed down.

Niall slowed his bike down and looked to turn around towards Ally, whispering, "God, I'm gonna cry."

"That makes the both of us then." Ally gave a sad smile.

"Alright you guys, look." Lauren said as they looked at her, "Ignore my past, it's bad and I have now accepted my fate. I don't even care anymore. Don't look at me scared, I'm not gonna kill myself like now, but like, just don't talk about it, only when it comes up or something."

Lauren came off of her bike, turned the engine off, parked it and walked towards the cars in front of them. The 3 looked at her sadly and they followed her lead.

A/n sorry for your feelings 😂