Simply Shattered (On Hold)

Late Nights

Cecelia's POV

I want red I think she want pink her lil friends on the low try to fuck on me but she know what's up wit me.....you a reflection of me shawty

Laying down in my room singing since Blessing is sleep from our long day I'm just bored now.

Thinking about now how my life is slowly changing August quit my job without my say so that argument was a battle he won't and he's right I need to do more than shaking my ass in front of strangers while I have a four year old daughter.

Now I don't know what I'm going to do working wise. August says he will provide for me and Blessing but I've worked to hard to be where I'm at now so that wouldn't work for me.

I'm the type of women who wanna do stuff on her on. Being abused by my momma when I was young and shit my life was fucked up I had to get out the hole.

Now in my twenties I feel like I'm something when all my life i felt like nothing in this world I feel like nobody can break me down now I've been thrown around too long I'm on my own and I feel like I'm the shit as a single mother

Getting caught up in my thoughts I hear voices not knowing who it is because Blessing suppose to be sleep she has day care in the morning while I job hunt.

Getting my gun from behind my night stand I slowly open my door having my gun behind my back. All the lights are off but I hear voices still coming from Blessing room....is she up again I thought ?

Opening the door August is throwin blessing up in the air

August what the hell you doing in here ? How the hell you get in here???

Chill ma I heard ya music playing so I knew u couldn't hear me but blessing heard me knockin and opened it for me

Making a mental not in my head to take Blessin stool from her

Blessing no ice cream tomorrow it is midnight and you have day care I've told you over and over NEVER OPEN MOMMY DOOR

Getting livid I wasn't even paying attention until I see blessing about to cry

No no mommy baby don't cry I just don't want nobody getting u from me that's why my momma tell you not to do them things okay ? I say wiping her tears

I'm sorry mommy you mad at me?

I can never be mad at my princess now get in bed and go to sleep I say getting ready to tuck her in

I love you baby kissing her

I love you princess August say

Closing the door giving him a cold stare not even caring he's here I go back up in my room laying down across my bed turning my beats pill down some taking pictures

I've thought about being a Instagram model since my followers boosted up since the last three weeks I think it'll help since they pay ya for the shit anyway