Stronger than before...

I'm A Monster

Murder. Murder was once something I cried in bed at night about because I had killed two people. Because I had believed I was a monster.

Now look at me. I had murdered god knows how many people since the prison, and now I just made a deal to murder Roger.

I was a monster. There was no way to deny it. It was something I had to accept.

I had told Daryl I loved him, not because he might've needed to hear it, but because I needed to know I said it. I don't know if I'm going to get caught killing Roger.

I had a plan. It was a really shitty plan. But then again I've had shittier, like that time I thought I could help cover Daniels death at the prison.

I was older and wiser now, I could do this.

It's not like Roger was a good person anyway, he was a savior. Saviors kill and torture innocent people.

The plan required me to upset Lily to the point were I needed medical help.

That shouldn't be to hard.

I waited until breakfast rolled over, though I was already starving I would have to give up my rations for the sake of this plan.

"Here" Lily said as opened my door and she handed me a sandwich.

I took the sandwich off the plate, I looked at it for a moment. They had stopped forcing me to eat dog food a couple months ago, but I still didn't trust them.

The sandwich had lettuce, tomato, and mustard on it.

I was starving, but I had to stick to the plan.

Lily was still waiting there to make sure I ate. I took one last look at the sandwich before throwing it outside into the hallway.

"Dammit!" Lily yelled pissed.

It was one thing for me not to eat it, it was another for me to waste the ingredients.

My plan had worked out perfectly. Two hours after Lily had beat the crap out of me Roger came to my cell to take me to the doctor.

"Again kid?" He groaned "Can't sleep in one fuckin day 'round here"

As Roger walked down the hallway, I stayed behind for a few seconds.

I locked my cell doorknob, but I kept the door open slightly. This was so once I got back, I could be locked in my cell, no one would suspect me.

Once we got to Doctor Caron's, he examined my face.

Luckily I didn't need anymore stiches, but if Lily had hit any harder I could've had a broken nose.

When Doctor Carson turned his back I grabbed a small sharp medical instrument. I'm pretty sure it was used to cut people's skin open.

I had the instrument up my arm sleeve and waited for Doctor Carson to dismiss me.

"You really need to stop making this a habit" Doctor Carson said to me "you can go now"

I jumped off the chair and started walking out the room with Roger. It was go time.

I was suddenly nervous, what If my plan didn't work? What if I got caught?

The hallway was empty.
There was no more time for thinking. It was now or never.

"Ow oh god" I said holding my head and pretending to be dizzy

I hid the instrument in my hand so he couldn't see it.

"The fuck is wrong?" He asked as he turned around

"I don't... I don't know" I Started pretending to loose my balance "I... just need a minute"

I went to lean on a door that led to a supplies cabinet. I put my hand on the door handle and pretend to accidentally open it and fall in.

"Oh shit" I said as I fell to the floor.

"Hey!" Roger yelled as he stepped into the room "get the fuck up. Now!"

"I'm sorry" I said as I slowly stood up.

I positioned the knife in my hand, I slowly stood up, Roger didn't suspect a thing.

Once I was on my feet I didn't hesitate. I slit his throat.

It caught him be surprise I could tell.

Blood poured out of his throat, it was way worse than I thought it would be.

He fell to the ground and bled out.

I waited until he was truly dead and then placed the instrument in his hand.

I closed the door to the room and quickly ran back to me cell.

I really was a monster, I just killed a man and didn't even feel bad about it.

It didn't dawn on my until I got back to my cell on what I had done.

I just started a war against Negan.

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