Carter Mahone

Carter Mahone Chapter 17

chapter 17

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Alexa pov.-

its been two days since Carter raped me. im a mess i dont look or feel like myself at all. i have been cryiing my eyes out for two days.

i just cant get the thought or picture out of my head. Carter Stop please i cried but nothing working. the words please stop repeated in my head over and over again. the events from that nigh are haunting me. I cant sleep at night. When i close my eyes to sleep i end up having nighmares the night just keeps playing in my head till i wake up in the middle of the night swaeting and crying.

I have no one no one to talk to this about. i havent been out of my room in two days, i just locked myself in. i have spoken a word to anyone in the house not even hannah knows what happened the other night. well at lest i dont think anyone knows i have told anyone like i said i have been out of my room in two days. i havent eaten in two days either. not that alex or hannah didnt offer me food. i just turned it down. im not in the right mind to do any thing right now.

I cant function with out something from that night coming back into my mind.Hell at this point i cant even look at carter with out thinking back to that night. even the metion of carters name makes me sick and feel unsafe. i use to feel safe when i was with carter but not i feel like he is the one that i need to be protected from. i dont think i even love him anymore. as a matter of fact i HATE him. im like having this inner war with myself at this point beause part of me still loves Carter and part of me wishes he was dead.

Carters pov

i dont regret what i did to alexa. not one part of me feels sorry for her. she is just some hoe that i fucked and told that i loved just to get her to sleep with me and even then i didnt have to tell her that beause she was scared of me and i used that to my advatge.

she hasnt come out of her room since the other night but in all honesty i dont really give a fuck if she dose or not. my job is just to keep her safe from her dad no one told me that i had to take care of her. besides she is old enough to do it on her own she doesnt need me. i have better fucking things to do anyways. as far as im consderned i got what i wanted from her and now i dont need her little sorry ass agian till i feel like i need her in that way again. weather or not she say no or yes i dont really give a fuck.

Carter you dont know what your talking about you do care about her. this little voice in my head keeps telling me but i just keep ignoring it cuz thats not who i am i dont care about other. the only people i really care about is me and mt crew and the only time i care about there safty is when we go into a job and it deals with somone taking the chance of being killed other than that they can do what ever the fuck they want to.

As of right now never cared about alexa and that what im going to keep tellinig myself. im not a nice guy and im sure the hell am not going to change for some fucking girl that is only here till i find her dad and kill him for shooting me after that i can and will do what ever the fuck i want to with alexa.

Alexa pov

i was really deep into thought when i was interuped by a loud bang on the door then someone yelling from the other side. as soon as i heard carters voice i froze. i didnt move or say a word i was scared for my life what if he gets in and hurts me again. with that crossing my mind i began to panic. jumpping up out of bed i ran into the bath room and locked the door.

"ALEXA OPEN THIS GOD DAMN DOOR RIGHT FUCKING NOW BEOFE I HAVE TO GET IT OPEN MYSLEF. WHATS IT GOING TO BE THE HARD WAY OR THE EASY WAY" he yelled from the other side of my bed room door.

"W-WHAT DO YOU WANT" i yelled back so that he could here me

"i just want to talk thats all" he just wants to talk i though to myself. i sat there and debted with myself on weather or not to open the door or not and of couse my dumb ass self open the door.

"what do you want to talk about carter cuz as far as i know there is nothing to be said" i was now standing face to face with the guy that just raped me, yet for some reason i cant keep my self from wanting to run up to him and cry my eyes out in his arms. god im so fucking confusing. one min i hate him the next i still see him as the guy that i love. what the fuck is wrong with me.

"i just want to talk, is all can i come in" he said sofly it almost looked like he ws sorry for what he had done but i dont know weather or not to belive him or not. deep down inside i know that he is lying but for some reason i cant make my self belive that he is.

"come in" i said but as soon as i shut the door i regreted it.

he pushed meup agastin the door and started to kiss my neck and working his way to my sweet spot. once he found it he beagn to suck on my neck as much as i wanted him to stop i could bring myself to tell him to stop.

"c-carter" i moaned god why am i so fucking dumb i though to myself.

"mmm i need you" carter wisperied into my skin giving me the chills. "jump" he said into my ear. everthing thing in me was telling me to stop and yell for help but i was complelty weak under is toch and i was also afraid that if i said no that he was force me to have sex with him anyways. so i get did what he said i jumped even tho that little voice in my head was telling me no and deep down i had a feeling i was in the wrong but i told myself that this was the only way to get him to go way and that he would hurt me. cuz if i tried to get away right now i was end up the same way as befoe. taken advaged of and left alone to deal with the affter math.

things started to become really heated once carter though me on the bed, by now i was compley undress and so was carter. but only this time he didnt pleaser me he force me on to his member making me gag evertime he pushed my head down. he was pulling on my hair so bad that i swear it was coming out. i could take it anymore the tears just started coming out. im so stupid to think that he was going to be diffrent this time. why do i have to be so dumb i though to myself.

i thought about bitting him but that would only make him pissed and that could make him want to hurt me. so i just fought though the pain. he finally pullled me up to him. with out warning he stuck his member into me. he begain to thrust hard and fast. it wasnt even pleasureable for me. the pain was really bad. next thing i know everything was becoming blurry and i was feeling really dizzy. i had hit my head on the headbord and after that everything went black.

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Wow she let carter into the room only to have him rap her again.

Whats going to happen to alexa will she tell anyone whats happening with her and carter or is she to scared to open up to anyone.

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