Carter Mahone

Carter Mahone Chapter 18

Chapter 18
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Alexa pov

It's been two days and carter hasn't changed. In fact things have gotten worse. He hits me all the time. I'm at my breaking point. I have tried fighting back but it gets me all it dose it piss carter off, it's gotten so bad. Yesterday was one of the worse days yet.

Flashback

"Carter please don't hurt me" I pleaded over and over but he just seemed to getting more pissed by the seconded.

"BITCH I TOLD YOU TO SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH" he spat back.

"I'm sorry, carter what ever is making you like this please tell me. I want to help you"

"YOU ARE THE FUCKING PROBLEM"

"H-how" I mumbled but loud enough for carter to hear. He was really scaring me now. He was way to close for my liking. I could feel his hot breath on my lips. I just wanted to kiss him so bad make him fall back in love with me. Maybe that's what it's going to take. I need to make him want me. Make him want me in a sexual way but more than just that I need him to love me again. I miss feeling safe in his arms. I miss the smell of him when he hugged me I miss all of that.

"I DONT NEED YOUR FUCKING HELP" he yelled at me while hitting me in the face. That was it I was broken beyond repair. No one can fix me not even carter if he tried

"Please don't do this carter please I beg you please just don't hurt me" I cried out. He had been scaring the hell out of me lately that I'm scared for my own life. Nothing smeeded to be helping he was going to rap me again and again this would be the 3rd time today that he was done this to me. I can't take it anymore.

"GET THE FUCK OFF ME " I yelled while hitting carter in the face. As much as that was problly the most dumbest ideas I'm the world at the moment it seemed right. But the last thing I was expecting was for carter to hurt me and I don't mean just hit or rap me I mean really hurt me.

Next thing I knew I was being punched over and over again. I could keep holding on anymore. I could see my life flashing before my eyes everything that me and Carter once had. When he was done he just left, he left me laying on the ground bleeding and trying to hold on to life. Finally everything went black.

End of flashback

It's been two days since that night and Hannah and Alex have been taking care off me. They told me I was out for two days. Two fucking days and dose carter give a shit no. He hasn't even been home lately. I see him in the morning sometimes but other than that he leaves for the day and comes back at odd times like 4 in the morning then goes back out the next day and dose it again. I'm not sure what he is doing but his red range is never in the drive way anymore.i really want to help him i really do but i daoont know how to help him and it kills me in side to think that im the reason for all of this.

i have gotten to the point that i honelsy believe that i deserve what carter is doing to me. When deep down i know that i dont but i just wont let myself believe it. im worthless and i would much rather Carter kill me now. i would do it myslef but i dont think i would go though with it like last time.

"Alexa open the door please' hannah said from the other side of my door breaking me from my thoughts witch i was gald for. i haavebenn thinking way to much about whats happening to me that its taking me to a dark place. somewhere i dont want to be. "plase alexa its me hannah im not going to hurt you"

"hold on im coming" i said while getting up from my bed and unlocking the door. i keep my door locked at all times now hoping that maybe it will keep carter out but it dosent. he just gets pissed and kicks the door down . i have gone though 7 door in the past week cuz he keeps kicking them down. "hannah there is nothing to talk about, i didnt this to carter and there is nothing we can do about it" wow saying that out loud sounded worse then when i said it out loud.

Did i really do this to cater? i though to myself. those words just repeated in my head over and over again. and the more and more i think about it the more i beleive that its true. i just want my carter back the one that didnt hit me or beat me up the one that didnt rap me over and over again. i want the somewhat loving and careing carter back the one i felt safe with.

"alaxa this isnt your fault, your not the reason for carter acting this way, im sorry that you have to go though this but please dont let your self belive it was your fault"

"its a little late for- i cut myself off and ran to the bath room throwing up again for the fourth time this week. i cant even really eat anything with out throwing up.

"Alexa are you okay" Hannah was now in the bathroom with me holding my hair while i thorw up everything i had in my stomach. " how long has this been going on"?

" about four days now i dont know whats wrong with me"

" Alexa your not pregnant are you"?

"no no i cant be can i"

i cant be pregnant

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She might be pregnant ahhhhh

will she tell carter?

if she dose how do you think he will react?

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AN: sorry for the short chapter.