Carter Mahone

Carter Mahone Chapter 4

Chapter 4
>New Place<

Alexa pov

It's been two days I think since we have been at this 'safe house'. Carter is really sweet at some moments and other he is complete ass to me.

I really miss home so much. I still have no clue why I'm really here every time I ask carter or any of the guys I get the same answer that it's to keep me safe. But safe from what or who.

I was in deep thought till, I heard someone yelling from down the hall.

"Did you not fucking hear me I said lets go" damn I didn't know he was talking to me ! Maybe next time he will use my name.

"Where are we going"?

Carter didn't say anything back so I didn't move from my bed. I'm not going anywhere with him till I know where I'm going. I have had enough of not knowing what the hell is going on.

" let's go Alexa. I don't know time for your games right now. We have somewhere to be" dose he not get I'm not going unless I know where it is.

" I'm not going anywhere till you answer me carter! Where are we going !! I'm done with not knowing what the hell is going on." I'm so done with all this bullshit" I can't take it anymore carter!"

At this point I'm in tears. I can't take it anymore. I can't hold back my feelings anymore. I'm done with trying to be strong. I'm weak and I can't change that. I just want to know what going on ! I'm done with all these secrets.

" please don't cry" I'm sorry I can't tell you right now what's going on" but please don't cry"

These are the times that carter is sweet and caring but it doesn't last long. Soon he will be right back to being mean to me.

"I'm sorry carter I just don't know what to do anymore" I said while whipping aways the old tears and trying to keep the new ones back.

I just want to die. Leave this world I'm done I can't do this. My life sucked before I was taken by carter and it sucks even more now.

I feel my self running down the hall Locking myself in the bathroom. I take multiple breaths over an over playing all the negative things of my life In my head. I shut my eyes squeezing them tight. When I feel them open I slide down the wall. Ok Alexa calm down. I stand up quickly at the sound of banging on the bathroom door.

" CMOM ALEXA OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR "

I flinch at the sound of Carter's tone. I'm not gonna open the door if that's what he thinks I'm gonna do. I look around the bathroom grabbing the glass tooth brush holder shattering it on the floor. I pick up a small piece sitting down on the floor. I stare at the wall cutting the glass into my wrists. Tears stream down my cheeks fast. I bite my lip to keep in the screams I'm probably making right now.

" ALEXA ! " he shoves himself into the door trying to open it. I dig deeper.

After awhile of the pain. I finally feel my arms becoming weak. I drop the glass am watch as it smashes into the floor.

Weakly standing up I walk towards the medicine cabinet. I pull out a large pill bottle looking down at the blood dripping into the sink.

" I'm sorry " I whisper. I shove multiple pills down my throat. Before I have a second to think I see blurs of the bathroom.

" ALEXA " the door bursts open. I can barely see anyone.

I hit my head hard on the wall passing out....

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CLIFF HANGER !!!