The Girl in Blue

39- The Girl Gets Emotional

Lana

"I hate that we didn't fight for the things that we loved, until the things that we loved turns into things that we hate and there was no love left."

The End.

The last line of the film is read as Addison is lying in the field and she wakes up and realizes that she'd lost in her relationship and that's how the film ends so it fades to black and the short credits start to roll as everybody starts to applaud.

A lot of people showed up so our apartment is pretty crammed. Tristan, Levi, Sutton, Jonah, Carmen, Megan, Tess, Dawson, John, Vic, Garrett, RJ, Omar, and Megan brought the girl that she's been flirting with, Teagan. Tess and Dawson are sitting together on the couch with Tess on his lap because they make a really cute couple and Sutton is sitting with Jonah right beside them because that's just how adorable they are, sitting in the couples' section like adorable couples.

"Don't move," I say loudly. "We still have the blooper reel."

Even though it's Thursday and we all are stressed and dying from exam week, we've decided to relax with some beer. Carmen is twenty-one now and so she supplied it which we all appreciate. Sutton and I are still nineteen so we still have about a year and a half to go before we can legally drink so Carmen will be our supplier for a while.

I push my way through the crowd and use my laptop to pull up the blooper reel that is separate from the actual film because we didn't show the bloopers in class but they're really funny. Between the actual film and getting together my present for Sutton, I didn't have time to do it so Levi put it together. I helped a little bit but I still haven't seen the final cut of what he chose to put in the final reel.

The first day of filming, we were outside. The first blooper it shows is Levi and I setting up the lighting source before we started filming. The camera was on because we were checking angles and everything. He's holding me in the video because we were standing how Addison and Omar had to stand in the shot. We look like a real couple.

It goes over some actual bloopers like Addison and Omar laughing or breaking character, forgetting lines. One time, an extra tripped over a cord and fell right on her face. Some of the other stuff that I have in there show the fun that we had while filming, getting the sets ready and everything. Some of it is Addison and Levi flirting up a storm behind the set. He looks so happy with her, he looks at her like she's his entire world even though when we were filming, they hadn't known each other very long.

The second day of filming, every time that I show up on camera, I obviously look irritated and miserable because that was the day that I was starting to admit it to myself that I liked Levi. That was also the day that I went home and got so hammered that I had admitted to Levi that I like him. It was a disastrous day and it shows on my face whenever I'm on the camera.

The third day of filming, my mood wasn't much better but it had improved a little bit. I had a play fight with Levi using some of the props left in the studio by other students and that was fun. It shows up on the bloopers too and I'm laughing a lot. I notice that when I look at him, I have the same look on my face as he does when he looks at Addison. That's the definition of pathetic for you.

By the end of the blooper reel, I'm realizing how ridiculous this whole thing is—my feelings for Levi. He loves Addison. I need to give it up but I just can't. I try, I convince myself that I can move on, and then I see him smile and I'm pulled back in.

"That was pretty good, wasn't it?" Levi wonders with a side smile as he's standing right next to me.

I open my mouth to say something but I'm feeling like I'm about to cry because he's so beautiful but he'll never look at me how I want him to. He'll never be mine the way that I want him to. He'll never hold me in his arms or kiss me or hold my hand or just be with me.