Torn (Ethan Dolan)

~Chapter 16~

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It's been a couple weeks since we've been home and Ethan has forgiven me but he still hasn't forgiven Julie. I can tell he is hurt. You can read it on his face.

He of course turned to Meredith not facing his problems.

I can tell that he even is disgusted with himself. Julie has come over multiple times, leaving multiple sorry notes and gifts. But him being the dick he is has thrown it all away.

Ethan walked through the door holding a container of what looked like brownies. There was a note on top and he crumpled it up throwing it away. I stood up after Ethan went to his room.

I made my way to the trash can and pulled the container out of the trash, also grabbing the note.

Ethan

I'm so sorry. I will never forgive myself for what I did to you. I wish you would at least look at me like a human instead of literal scum of the Earth.That would be better than you hating me. I still love you and always will please Ethan, I beg of you. I know you love my brownies, so please consider it.

~Julie

Her note made me feel so bad. This is all my fault. I opened the container, curious of the flavor. I took a bite and moaned at the taste. I don't know what's so good about it but I can tell there's an added ingredient.

Ethan is an idiot.

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There was knocking on my door. I didn't even care how I looked, I stood up and opened it instantly being encased in arms. For a second I hoped it was Ethan but that wasn't Ethan's undeniable smell.

The man smelt good, but nothing near as good as Ethan. And his hug just wasn't the same.

When the man pulled away, Grayson's face was revealed. I tried to smile but my body refused to. I was too out of energy.

"I'm so sorry Julie..." he looked down at me "I'm an awful human... This is all my fault."

I cracked a tiny smile, "It's not your fault... It's mine, I decided to date your brother after sleeping with you, fell in love and skrewed up."

Grayson has been here for an hour comforting me. He let me cry all pain out. He explained to me that he really liked me for a while but he got over that when he realized I was madly in love with Ethan.

"What's this?" Grayson asked spinning around the ring Ethan got me.

"Ethan got it for me...." she frowned. "I never take it off..."

My smile dropped and I hugged her as her tears started up again.

"Does he hate me?" Julie asked.

"He could never hate you..." I wiped the tears away from her cheek.

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I thrusted faster and harder, releasing all my tension and sadness into her. She squealed loud and it was annoying as hell.

"Ethan baby..." Meredith moaned lying against my chest as I collapsed to her side.

She sounded and felt nothing like Julie. Julie was perfect in every way- Shut up Ethan! She broke your heart.

But I'm finding it easier to move on, now with Meredith. I'm quickly falling for her. I've forgiven Grayson. I mean he is my twin brother.

Meredith leaned over kissing my cheek.

"What are you thinking about?" she giggled lightly. "Me?"

"Course baby..." I lied. She laughed getting on top of me and began to make out with me. I didn't refuse. It felt good to feel something instead of nothing.

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"Did you do it cause you wanted to feel something instead of nothing too?" she asked me as we ate ice cream.

"Yeah..." I nodded my head. "Thanks for being my escape even though I regret it..."

She laughed at me, "No problem buddy... Same goes to you."

It was nice being able to just eat ice cream on the couch while watching Friends reruns on TV with Julie. Why did I always think I needed her in a romantic way. She's also a great friend.

I lifted a spoonful of ice cream to Julie's mouth but quickly pulled it away and put it into my mouth.

"Why would you do that Gray?" she pouted.

"Cause it's funny when you're mad..." I laughed.

"You're mean..." she continued to pout.

"Oh shush, you love me..." I stated as I pulled her into a hug.

"True, I do..." she smiled for the first time in a while.

"Do you think you'll ever move on?" I asked.

"I don't think so..." her smile dropped. "I care about him too much..."

"He care about you too..." I state.

"Doesn't seem like it..." she weakly smiles.

"He's just being an idiot..." I ruffle her hair up and she laughs.

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