There and Back Again {On Hold}

alone

Karkat's POV:

I heard my alarm blaring from my left side.
I groggily reached for my phone to turn it off but made the big mistake of leaning too far and fell off the bed.

I yelled as I desperately grabbed for anything to keep me from falling but failed and faceplanted the carpet.

I heard my door open. "Karkat? Are you ok?" Questioned what sounds to be John's voice.
"Yes..." I muffled out and raised my head to meet bright blue orbs.

"Did you have another nightmare?" He tilted his head in confusion.
"No I'm just a fucking idiot." I replied nonchalantly.

"Boys! You better hurry up or you'll miss the bus!" hollered dad.

"Oh shit! I'm not even dressed! Get out so I can do that!" I yelled as I shoved a laughing john out my door.

I found a pair of clean jeans and my blood hoodie, slipped on some sneakers and grabbed my backpack and strolled out of my room to be met with john in his breath hoodie and some jeans similar to mine but lightler.

I wasn't gonna lie. It was starting to get chilly outside. So hoodies are a thing now. Not that they weren't a thing.

We left just in time as the bus was starting to leave, we sprinted up to the opening and climbed in.

We found some seats at the back and sat down in silence for the whole ride

We got to school and went upstairs to put our stuff in our lockers.

As I sat my stuff in my locker, john just stared at me.
"What?" i said clearly puzzled.

He just stared.
"John?"

He looked away.

"Hey...are you ok?" I questioned.

He then latched himself on to me and squeezed.
I hugged him back.
"Thanks... For you know...being here..." He mumbled.
"No problem..."

The bell then rang and a sea of students came upstairs.
"Come on...let's get to class.." he tugged me into our class that wasn't very far away.

Just when I was about to sit next to john for the day, but Terezi came in and dragged me over to where she was sitting. 

John looked at me with sad eyes then looked down.

I tried to push it out of my mind as Terezi started up a conversation with me.

By the end of the class, me and her were in a heated argument about how red was better then white to which I declined her statement.

We argued all day about it. We even got some supporters at lunch.
Jade and tavros were for red. And vriska and nepeta (of course) agreed with me on white. So we were tied. I just had to ask one more person. And I knew exactly who to ask.

John.

He hated the color red so I knew he was gonna choose white.

We were walking to gym.

"Karkat that isn't fair! He doesn't like red!" Yelled jade as we walked.
"Who said this was fair?" I chuckled.

We got into the gym and proceeded to wait for my brother.

I was surprised when the tardy bell rang and he still wasn't in the gym then the gym teacher excused us to our changing rooms.

"He's just late..." I told myself to keep from worrying.

"Where's john?" Asked jade when we came out.

"I don't know..." I looked down.

All of a sudden I felt sick.
What if something happened to him?
And I wasn't there...

I felt like a horrible brother...

"Karkat??" I felt jade shake my shoulders.
"Are you ok?! You look sick! Do you need to go to the nurse?"

"N-no...I'm fine..." I mumbled.

After class I went on a search for him.
I checked every bathroom, Every janitor's closet. Anywhere a nerd could hide from a bully.

I couldn't find him so I texted him.

~carcinoGeneticist started pestering ectoBiologist~

CG: JOHN?

CG: WHERE ARE YOU?

CG: I CANT FIND YOU!

CG: john I'm serious.

CG: answer me!

He never answered me.

I felt tears prickle my eyes as the tardy bell rang.

I trudged slowly to my class, not caring if I was late.

Luckily I got to class before the actual bell rang.

Terezi bounced toward me.
"Karkat? Where were you?"

"Have you seen john?" I asked.
"I can't see Dumbass!" She replied with a bit of snark in her voice.
"You know what I mean!" I almost yelled at her.
"Hey, calm down? What happened?" She patted my back.

"I...I don't know! He wasn't in gym..and he won't answer PesterChum!" I tried to calm myself down.
"Hey...calm down...I'm sure everything is fine..." She tried to comfort me.

To no avail...

I waited for him by the bus while it boarded. He didn't show up.

I road the bus home...alone...