Joshifer (We Remain)

part 21

LOVE TO YOU ALL !! / Authors Note

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Jennifer's POV

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I didn't eat anything.

Everyone was deep in their own conversations. Josh and all the boys were talking about something which I couldn't recall in my mind. All that I could think about, was the events from the club. As hard as I tried to focus, and as much as I wanted to socialize with everyone else, I just couldn't. Its not fun staring at a blank wall, even though I'm lost in deep thought. I must look blank as a canvas.

My phone loudly buzzes from my pocket. Taking it out. My heart rate literally speed up when I saw who had texted me. Nick. My eyes felt as though they were going to pop out of their sockets. Anxiety quickly fills my body as I open up the message.

Jen.

I want to come see you.

- Nick

It was a short text, but enough to make me anxious.

I lose grip of my cellphone, carelessly letting it drop to the floor. I look dumbfounded for a for seconds, until I bend down to grab it off the ground. My hands had no control, I felt like they had turned into gelatine from being so shaky.

Josh , who is sitting across the table , seems to be the only one to be court off guard by my actions.

"You okay Jen. " he mouths out

I look down, shaking my head , giving Josh a indication that I'm not alright

I excuse myself from the table. Getting a lot of concerning looks from everyone.

Josh understands, that I have needed a lot of space lately. I tend to feel better getting away from everyone. Don't get me wrong. I love my co-workers. I hope that they just realise, I need a lot of healing time. Nick of top of it all, doesn't make this situation any better.

Joshes eyes never leave mine the whole time. He cares and I know that. I appreciate him. He's been giving me a lot if time to myself, him doing that for me is a sense of relief

I have a hidden stash of smokes in the bathroom. They are hidden right at the back of the cupboard. I put them there so Josh wouldn't find them. Quietly, I take a few, putting them into my pocket, along with the lighter. I have to be discreet about this . No one knows that I still do this. Blaine knows nothing.