(YOUR POV)
Monday has finally come. This is my normal day; Go to school, be unnoticeable and blend in with the crowd.
But today, I heard a thunderclap on a sunny day like today. ‘Weird.’ I thought as I looked up to the sky.
I only had one friend. And he happens to be the most popular guy in school. His name is Kim Jongin or I called him, Kai and he’s my childhood friend.
Everyone knew each other in this town and they all knew me as the girl who had no potential at all compared to the other ‘barbie dolls’ in school.
Everyone avoided me because I was shy and I rarely spoke to anyone, but not Kai. In first grade, he stood up to everyone who bullied me and I truly admired him. He is a respected member of the school and the community, a sweet and charming person.
To tell the whole truth, Kai and I have a special bond. Even if it’s only as childhood friends, we have come to know that each of us have played a big role on each other’s life. And throughout the years I’ve spent my time with Baekhyun, I think...
I’ve fallen deeply in love with him.
As though I can’t say it, if I want this relationship to go beyond “friends,” it would probably end with him avoiding me and me, being alone because the saddest fact is, Kai already has a girlfriend.
As I thought, I need to keep this love as a secret and wait for him even if it takes forever.
** **
You waited for Kai to come out of his house as usual. This guy is kind of a weirdo, he’s a heavy sleeper. You can’t wake him up unless you brought chickens with you; yeah, he’s a chicken maniac unlike Kris, your brother who once said, “Chicken isn’t my style.” But he ended up eating the chicken as he found it tasted yummy just by looking this Kai guy eating it.
The door of his home suddenly bolted open and Kai ran up to you. He quickly apologized for his lateness and flashed a cheerful smile to you; you’ve always love his gummy smile, he looked cuter than ever.
You remained silent and walked silently with him to school as you cherished the memory of his smile in your mind; secretly smiling as you thought.
Just as you were about to enter the school gates, Kai brought up the subject of yours & of course his birthday, which is in a week’s time. Coincidently, you were born on the same day and ever since you both knew about this silly yet true fact, you’ve spent your birthdays along together.
“Hey, ______. This year’s the summer festival coincides with our birthday, right?” He asked, turning his head to you as he started the conversation.
You nodded as an answer. Deep inside, you hoped he would like to ask you out to celebrate together but…
“Well then, on that day... I promised I’d go to the festival with my girlfriend,” he continued, shifting his head in front. ‘What? You were supposed to celebrate our birthday with me.’You thought, looking at Kai with pleading eyes. But Kai seemed to try to avoid your eye contact.
You clenched the straps of your school bag and slowly walked away from him. “Yeah right, I forgot –stupid me-. He has a girlfriend now. He won’t need me anymore.”
** **
It was the day of your birthday and your dear cousin came to visit. Truthfully, your cousin is the only person who knows about your undying love for Kai.
“You know what, the only reason you haven’t confessed your feelings to him is because you have no courage!” She exclaimed & you know she was right.
‘I know I’m a coward’, You thought; hanging your head down low.
“Right now you’re comfortable. If you don’t take the courage to go to the next step, your relationship with him might shatter! C’mon, ______. Wake up! Where the real ______ I used to know back then.”She added but you shut your mouth; you don’t know how to answer her or even what to say to her.
“You shouldn’t have fallen in love in the first place if you are going to act like this, ______.” She shouted when you hadn’t said anything.
There’s not going to work anyway; if you confess to Kai. Even if you tell Kai that you like him, he might be troubled by it. And soon, you wouldn’t be able to continue the friendship you have now. You wanted to look after the bond that you have and you can’t and won’t do such things as confessing,
Because the feeling of friendship won’t disappear as easily as the feeling of love. That’s true.
** **
You saw Kai and his girlfriend walking hand in hand together at the festival. He looks so cool ans she’s so beautiful. Both of them looked jubilant and you had to admit they fitted perfectly for each other. Without your own acknowledge, you sighing heavily as you looked at the perfect couple.
Kai has a girlfriend now and your role of being by his side and taking care of him now, all become her responsibility. She’s the important person in his life and you were hoping your friendship with Kai wouldn’t change abruptly.
“What am I even doing?” You looked away from the couple, shaking your head in despair. There were tears in your eyes. You walked away without any directions.
** **
You walked alone on the aisle that one evening. Remembering that Kai wasn’t mean for you; he was just a good friend of yours, nothing more than that fact. Suddenly, the rain started to pour over your head. You quicken your path and went to find a shelter for a while because the rain was starting to pour heavily from the sky.
You found an old bus stop nearby and immediately ran up to it. You were soaking wet because of the rain. Your whole body was trembling and shivering hard due to the cold. The wind blew and you started to sneeze. You know you were close enough to catch a cold. ‘Dang it!’ You cursed as the rain was still pouring heavily.
** **
You were about to leave the bus stop since the rain had stopped pouring when you felt arms wrapping around your waist. You stopped abruptly. You heard a soft sob from behind and your heart was beginning to thump faster than ever. You wanted to free yourself from the embrace but you couldn’t. “______~”
You heard the voice; it’s Kai! But why is he crying?
“K-Kai? Is that you?” You managed to speak. Kai broke the hug, turned your around to face him. You could see the tears in his pair of brown eyes as you looked at him straight to his eyes. You held his hand, they were frozen.
“What’s wrong? What happened? Aren’t you supposed to be wit—“ You were cut by a sudden force on your lips. Your eyes were widening due to the unexpected action of Kai. His lips were kissing yours.
As he broke the kiss, he blurted,
“I like you. I’m sorry; I’ve been such a stupid.”
You stared at him in confusion. You mind was completely blank. Kai said he like you but he already has a girlfriend. What on Earth was he thinking?
“What are you saying? Are you for real?” You let out an awkward laugh, placing the back of your hand to feel his temperature. “H-Hara.. She cheated on m-me. I-I saw her, _____. She was w-with another guy.” You gasped lightly to his statement. You shook your head, trying to erase everything in your mind. You don’t want to believe what Kai was saying that moment. You grabbed his arm and dragged him away to your house. ‘He needs a rest.’
** **
You changed your clothes into your casual one once you’ve reached your house. You told Kai to get change too and you’ll talk everything to him once he done.
You went to the kitchen, preparing a hot chocolate drink for the both of you but as you stirred the drink, you felt a warmth breath brushed your neck. Then, arms were wrapping your waist again. You heard a soft whisper, “______, and thanks for everything. I’ve always wanted to tell you this but couldn’t, I love you.”
/end/
Note : I'll leave the rest to your own imagination.
