That Girl

Blog 407: Ohh Baby

*Flashback*

1 year ago

Hey, guys, I'm back this blog is going about my life when I found out I was pregnant with Olivia May and how it's affecting me now. I know I told you my feelings during the pregnancy but those blogs got erased so I'm going through it again. When I got pregnant with Olivia it was one of the hardest times of my life and it all started that night, the night that changed my life forever, I was going on a date with my boyfriend Matty he suggested we went to a party. Matty, the guy I met the first week of school, I first saw him in the office I was getting my schedule and I guess he was getting him, when I saw him I didn't think he would make such a huge impact on my life but hey he did. whenever I was with I was happy, it felt like I could be myself around and he wouldn't judge me, there was never a time I wasn't smiling when I was with him until a week after that night. We arrived at the party and I could hear the music blaring from the house as we got closer, parties weren't always my favorite scenes but I knew nothing bad would happen to me with Matty by my side, or so I thought. We walked into the house and cups were shoved into our hands, Matty drank him the second he got it I took a sip and wanted to throw up, "Come on babe you can do it it's not that bad." Matty said to me as we walked further into the house until we reached the kitchen where he grabbed another drink. I chugged mine and went to get more after a while I started to get used to the taste, we started to dance and even made out a little. We made our way upstairs and went into one of the guest rooms, we made out and before I knew it clothes, were off, he was on top, and I'm pretty sure you guys know what happened next. I woke up the morning after and I wasn't feeling good, I had the worst hangover and I didn't remember coming home last night, I slowly turned over and saw Matty lying next to me and started to remember what happened the night before, I slept with Matty, he was the first guy I have ever done anything with and don't even remember all of it. A few weeks after the party I found myself throwing up and feeling nauseous every morning I woke up and it lasted almost all day, Missy started to notice that something was up.

Missy- "Maya what's wrong with you? You've been acting weird."

Maya- "Okay I guess I should tell you."

Missy- "Tell me what?"

Maya- "You know that party Matty took me to a few weeks ago."

Missy- "Yes don't rub it in."

Maya- "I got super drunk and slept with Matty."

Missy- "OMFG!!!! Maya!! Why are you just now telling me?"

Maya- "I don't know I guess I was scared."

Missy- "Maya you've been nauseous and throwing up a lot, were you and Matty careful?"

Maya- "I don't really remember why?"

Missy- "Maya what if you're pregnant? I've seen this before I have two older sisters and they acted exactly like this when they were pregnant."

I began to think pregnant, there was no way I could be pregnant I was only 15 I was still in high school I had a whole lot of things to look forward to in the future. I began to think and I don't recall my mom ever taking me to get birth control pills, and I didn't remember Matty pulling out a condom at the party so Missy and I decided to walk to a drug store a few blocks away from our neighborhood so no one we knew would see us. I walked up to the register and asked the lady where the medical section was, she pointed it out I walked down and started looking for a pregnancy test, I'd never seen one before so I was happy I had Missy with me. We paid for the test and I would never forget the words the lady at the register said to me "I hope everything goes well for you sweetie. I know what you're going through you'll get through it. Good luck." she had a sad face and I could hear the disappointment in her voice, it sounded like she has said that too many teenage girls before who came in for the exact reason I was in here today, and even though I didn't know her the words stayed with me forever. We went to McDonald's I felt like it wasn't safe for us to do it at either of our houses. I read the box and it said you had to wait 5 minutes before you got the results and if a + I was pregnant and if a - I wasn't, I went into the bathroom and took all three tests and prayed that when the 5 minutes were over a - appeared on all the test. 30 seconds, 30 seconds and my life would go on like nothing ever happened or my life would change forever, the timer went off and I slowly walked over to the sink I looked at the test and fell to the floor I couldn't do anything but cry, Missy walked over and pulled me in for a hug.