My Thoughts

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It's scary how easily someone can turn on you. It's funny how easily it is to lie. It's horrifying how easily you can disappear. Like a flash of lightning, you're gone in an instant, someone had turned on you, someone had lied. I learnt this today, but I feel like I had known this all along. Someone close to me had turned on me within a matter of seconds. Someone close to me had lied to me for years. Someone close to me had helped me realize I could so easily disappear. I've tried to live up to their standards, but there's no point. I know I'm sick in the head and nothing can change that. I told you everything, but you didn't care. You'd pressure me into doing things I do not enjoy. No not sexual things, but things. I can't help that I'm not normal, and I can't help to get you like me for me. I'm sorry I don't wear ripped blue jean shorts, and gladiator sandals, and bright coloured shirts, ect. But I'm not sorry about being myself. It's took me such a long time to get you to talk to me without being judgy. It's took me such a long time to get you to tolerate me. Don't say this is my fault, because it's not, and never will be.