[ ariana grier ]
(this chapter contains mature content, BEWARE!!! if you cant handle any sort of sexual stuff then skip this cuz it gets heated)
it's now about 8. shawn and i are at home by ourselves having a bobs burgers marathon. it's great.
after a little while, shawn shut the TV off.
"hey, i was watching that." i said as i still looked at the black TV screen.
"i just want your attention for a second." he said.
i looked over at him and he looked tired.
"are you tired baby?" i asked.
"no, not at all." he said and looked into my eyes.
he slowly leaned in, and i stopped him.
ive been thinking about something for a while. shawn and i have been together now for a year and have never uh, never done anything sexual. unless you count that one time sexual, we haven't. it's not that i don't trust shawn, it's just i wanted to wait for the right time. i know shawn would never intentionally hurt me. i feel like i'm ready. should i tell him? i don't know. i feel like it will be so awkward to just say it, but how else do i tell him?
"what's wrong?" he asked looking at me confused.
"i'm ready." i said.
"ready? what do you mean?" he asked as he grew even more confused.
"i think i'm ready to have sex shawn." i said and looked at the ground.
this. is. awkward.
"look i know, this is probably awkward the way i'm saying it, but how else was i suppose to tell you?" i asked as i felt embarrassed.
"it's not awkward." he said.
i looked at him and his eyes were wide as can be.
"i know it took me a long time to be ready, but i needed to make sure i was for sure ready. and i'm gonna be completely lost, im a little bit scared, and i don't know." i said and hid my face in my hands.
"hey, don't be embarrassed. let's take this upstairs?" he asked.
i nodded and we walked upstairs.
he lied me gently on the bed and removed my cardigan. he slowly ran his hands along my arms, making me feel goosebumps form everywhere.
he smirked a little to himself as he examined my mostly clothed body. he leaned down to my lips and kissed me more passionately than ever before. his hands moved to my back, unzipping my dress. it wasn't until the dress was gone that i realized i had no bra on underneath.
"oh no." i said and covered my chest.
"ariana please don't cover up, you're so beautiful." he said and moved my hands.
i closed my eyes, scared to see his reaction. after a few seconds i opened my eyes, seeing his glued to my chest. he glanced up at me and bit his lip.
"beautiful." he said.
why is everything so awkward for me? this is nerve wrecking.
he must've noticed how nervous i was, because he kept reassuring me that he'd treat me right.
"i promise, ill make you feel beautiful. ill make you feel loved. ill make you feel special. darling, trust me." he said as he gently ran his hand along my jawline.
- *skip the nasty 💀
we lied there next to each other, still sweaty and breathing heavily.
"holy shit." i said out of breath.
"that was.. amazing." shawn panted.
"oh my god it was." i said and rubbed my sweaty forehead.
shawn wrapped his arms around my waist and snuggled into my neck.
"that was definitely worth the wait." he said making me laugh.
"did i hurt you at all?" he asked me.
"it only hurt for a few seconds. don't worry baby, it was amazing. i love you." i said and kissed his forehead.
"i love you too. and hey, i have a suggestion." he said.
i looked over at him.
"let's do this more often." he said and fell asleep.
i laughed and rolled my eyes and drifted off as well.
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writing sexual things is extremely hard for me cuz i'm just a terribly awkward person so i'm not good at it and i DO NOT wanna write smut so i kinda just skipped the really dirty part!!
