[ ariana mendes ]
May 20th, 2021
i woke up a little earlier than normal today. shawn's side of the bed was empty, he had left around 6 this morning to go help andrew with some moving. i felt horrible. i woke up this morning with the urge to throw up right away. great, i probably caught what nash had. the idiot decided to come over while he had the flu. but it was good to see him! he & sadie broke up about 5 years ago. he finally had enough of her being a cheater. now he's with this girl named Autumn, and they have a little 2 year old girl named Nicole. she's absolutely precious.
but no matter how great it was to see them, i sill caught nash's flu.
i shot shawn a text letting him know i wasn't feeling so hot, and that i'd probably be in bed most of the day. it's been ages since ive been sick, i definitely didnt miss it.
a few hours went by and i still felt shitty. i talked to my mom a little and she thinks i must've gotten what nash had.
but there was one thing she mentioned that had me picking my brain a little.
"maybe you're pregnant?"
that's nearly impossible. my doctor told me two years ago, there's a very very small chance i could ever have children. it broke mine and shawns heart to hear that, and we have tried and tried. i mean, i guess it is kind of possible. shawn and i have been sexually active quite a bit the past few weeks but, there's just no way.
again. there it is again. i ran to the bathroom, throwing up my guts. my stomach and chest hurt so bad from how much ive thrown up today. it's horrid.
just as i was done with that horrible moment, i heard the front door open.
"im home sweetie! i got you some medicine." i heard shawn say.
i walked into the living room and saw him, standing there looking effortlessly beautiful. i adore him.
"here you go honey." he said and handed me the medicine.
i smiled and said thank you, wanting to give him a hug but not wanting to give him what i've got.
"hey, andrew still needs help. i just wanted to come check on you and bring some medicine." he said and gave me a kiss on the forehead.
"ok, thank you." i said.
"no problem. ill be back within an hour. is that alright?" he asked.
i nodded my head.
"ok. see you soon, love you." he said and left.
i walked upstairs to our master bedroom and opened the cupboard above the sink.
i found what i was looking for.
a pregnancy test.
i breathed in nervously and took it out of the box.
"here goes nothing." i sighed.
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wow who even knew i was still alive.
