The Princess And The Butler [Completed]

Thirty Nine

The Butler

Third Person's POV

Alex was very mad to the point na naibunton nya ang galit sa dalaga. It was never his intention to accuse her of something he's sure that she never planned. Lalo na at kita sa mga mata nito ang pagkagulat ng malaman nitong ina nya ang matagal na nitong kakilala.

Pero ng makita nyang muli ang ina, it was like he was back to the lost six year old boy. Iyong batang naghanap ng kalinga ng ama ngunit hindi naibigay sa kanya nito dahil abala ito sa pagsagip sa sariling kalugmukan, at dahil iyon sa kanyang ina na umabanduna sa kanila, sa kanya.

When he was a kid he experienced being left out, one by one, people in his life starts to leave. First was his mother, then his father, at doon nya napatunayan na lahat ng tao ay kaya syang iwan lang ng basta-basta.

He never had the chance to experience a complete and a happy family that was full of love.

Kaya natakot syang magmahal, dahil takot din syang maiwan. So he chose to live for himself, he chose to put boundaries to the people around him, in that way, hindi sya masasaktan, hindi rin sya maiiwanan.

He despises women, he was never close with them maliban na lang siguro kay Arianna na talagang pinatunayan nito na mananatili ito sa kanyang tabi bilang kaibigan. Dahil sa bawat kababaihan na nakikita nya, nakikita nya ang ina na umabandona sa kanya.

But when Kailee came into the picture, everything changed. Bumalik ang ala-ala ng batang binigyan nya ng kwintas na may kalahating puso as a sign that he will marry her someday, sya ang nauna, the eleven years old Alex already marked the six year old Kailee to be his when they grow up.

Kailee was the girl who gave light to his dark world even for a short period of time.

Kaya't nagseselos sya kapag nakikita itong masaya kasama ang kaibigan nito, na ito ang mas nakasama nito sa maraming bagay, naiinis sya kapag nakikita nyang umiiyak ito at gusto nyang manapak sa kung sino man ang nanakit dito. He wants to protect her, take care of her and love her for a long time as long as he lives.

Pero di nya magawa. He can't easily give in.

Because he's too fucked up and he needs to fix himself, but he can't, 'cause he's scared to know the truth behind his parents story.

Alex also knew that he shouldn't have done it. Hindi nya dapat pinaasa ang dalaga, hindi na nya dapat ipinakita dito ang pagpapahalaga because he knew very well what would be the consequences of his sweet actions. But his heart says otherwise. Pinipigilan nya ang sarili, he's scared of falling for Kailee dahil ang alam nya ay hindi sila nararapat para sa isa't-isa.

She's too young for him, and he knows that she deserve someone better than him. Yung taong kayang magmahal sa kanya ng buo. Yung hindi takot magmahal na kagaya nya.

Iyong taong kayang ibigay ang lahat sa dalaga.

And for Alex, he's not the right person to do the job, but he wants to take the honor of doing so pero pinipigilan nya ang sarili.

So he pushed her away, treated her coldly. He pretend that he didn't care pero ang totoo ay tuwing gabi ay sa CCTV room na sya natutulog para lang makita ang bawat kilos ng dalaga.

Doon nya lang kasi ito malayang mapagmamasdan, pero gusto nyang sapakin ang sarili kapag nakikita nya itong umiiyak sa attic, kapag nakikita nya itong matamlay. Pero tinatagan nya ang sarili, he need her to let go dahil sya mismo ay hindi nya kaya.

Pansin nya ang pagbaba ng timbang ng dalaga dahil sa malimit na pagkain nito. She was not the same cheerful Kailee he met at alam nyang dahil iyon sa kanya.