Locker 17

Chapter 68

*Harry's POV*

I search for Louis around the tables. What the fuck is he doing with that bitch Lulu or whatever her fucking name is. And of course the dumb bitch from earlier is sitting there too. Louis doens't know how to keep quiet about this whole situation. He doesn't realise that if he pushes her buttons she's going to hold our secret against us. If the school found out that'd be it, not for me but for Louis. I don't give a fuck about everyone finding out that I'm dating Louis. In fact I'd be happy if they'd find that out and that I'm gay but I'm doing this for him. The whole reason why he moved here was because he was picked on for being gay at his old school. I don't want him to deal with the same shit here and have to move again, not after everything we've gone through already.

I see that he's too busy talking to the two she devil's to pay any attention on looking for me.

"You should sit down, he won't be coming back anytime soon." The familiar voice calls me. It's Liam. He's seated in the table right next to where I'm standing, surrounded by books and papers.

"What are you doing alone?" I sit down opposite of him. I almost feel bad for him after finding out the story behind the whole Jen thing. 

"I'm always alone? You get used to it after a while." He looks back down at his book that he's so into. There is no better time to give him a better apology than what I already gave him. I look back at Louis, he's still talking to the skanky bitches. 

"Can we talk?" I move the book away from his face, closing it and placing it next to me. 

"Is it about Jen?" He sighs. I take a deep breath and pretend that no one else is in the room. I can't hear anything, just Liam. I won't let anything distract me from doing what's right here, no reputation getting in the way of apologising. 

"I'm sorry. How sorry? There are no words to say how sorry I am for everything. I know you wanted the best for her and you. Taking away her virginity before you did was sickening. I'm not going to make her look bad because in the end it was me doing it to her. I'd be lying if I said I had feelings for her and the only reason I did it wasn't to hurt you. I wanted to hurt everyone, everyone and take anything that held meaning to them. Jen meant so much to you and I knew that. I was only trying to fill in something that I thought my life was missing. Sick isn't it? If I could go back and fix things I would Liam. Maybe I hadn't realised this before because I didn't know what love was like. Now I know that having love taken away from you hurts more than any physical pain. It's that pain in your chest that you can't get rid of unless you have that person back." I stop to clear my throat. It's dry and hard to keep speaking.

"That person is Louis isn't it?" He tilts his head and a weak smile is shown.

"I've known him since we were kids," flashbacks of us playing in the sandbox play in my head, making me smile at the thoughts,"we made a promise when we were younger about finding each other eventually after I moved. It happened. I had feelings for him back then, even as a kid I wasn't into girls. My only friend was Louis, that was it. All the other kids in school would be chasing girls around while me and Louis sat down on the playground and just talked. We were always mature for our age. After we got separated it was a tough transition to another kind of environment. So many years I went with a void in my life, I know it sounds dumb and doesn't sound like me but it's true. I didn't know how to fill in that empty space. I tried fucking girls, doing drugs, the unthinkable. That void was never filled in until Louis was back in my life. I'll admit and say I had no idea that I knew him when he first got here. He was just simply the new kid, but there was something about him that caught my attention and that was it. I knew him. I found that out later on after a couple weeks of him being here. I don't want to make this all about me though." I say changing the subject, I've been talking to much. I bet Liam doesn't even give a shit about everything I'm pouring out to him. It was supposed to be an apology for him, not telling him my life story. 

"No it's ok. It's good that you're finally opening up." He assures me.

"This isn't about me. I found the one person I love and I still have him but you don't have who you thought you'd spend the rest of your life with. You had everything planned out with her. I would always hear you two talking about what you two wanted to do as you grew up. Face it Liam, you hate me because of it all." I know he does. If someone tried taking Louis away from me and succeeded there wouldn't be a word for how much I'd hate the person. The amount of things I'd do to a person who would do such a thing. I nearly lost it with Noah, imagine if Louis would've actually gone with him. 

"I should actually be thanking you for that." What the fuck? How can you be thanking a person for ruining your long time relationship?

"What?" My eyes widen at his response. 

"I said thank you for that. I would have never had the guts or the heart to break up with her."

"Why would you want to break up with her?" 

"If I was still with Jen, it wouldn't be for long. She would have wasted another year of her life with me for nothing. There's no future for me. I'm just kind of here. Louis is really the only one who understands me." His eyes are glassy. He blinks rapidly to stop the tears from running. 

"No future?" I don't want to know the answer to that. I already feel bad enough for him, not this.

"Louis didn't tell you?"

"Tell me what?" Liam's eyes stop focusing on me.

"Harry!"  I turn around to find Louis standing behind me. He's about to reach for me and wrap his arms around my neck behind me but he stops himself. 

"Sorry I forgot." He blushes and steps back in embarrassment.

"You two should run along. Lunch is almost over, you don't want to waste time." Liam smiles at Louis, picking up the book I took from him. 

"Let's go, we might as well head to class." Louis shrugs his shoulders. 

"Yeah, right." I let Louis walk in front of me. I look over at Liam but he's already reading. Is Louis supposed to tell me something?

"What were you doing talking to Liam?" I'm not going to tell him everything I told him.

"I owed him an apology." We both walk through the hallways. If there weren't students around or if it wasn't bad to be gay around here, I'd be holding Louis' hand just like the couple in front of us. But no one cares if it's a guy and a girl, if it was a guy and a guy all hell would break loose.

"Really?" A huge smile spreads across his face.

"Really," I look down at him, still walking. "So what were you doing talking to Lulu?" 

"Lily." He corrects me.

"What were you doing talking to Lily?" I stress 'Lily' more than I should. 

"I wasn't even paying attention. She was going about how she kissed this guy on New Years and how she's kinda secretly going out with him." He rolls his eyes. 

"Poor guy. Having to deal with that must be hell. Why would anyone want to put up with a stuck up whore like her?"

"You just hate her because she's the one that helped me make you jealous. " He points his finger to my chest once we get to the front door of the classroom. 

"Nah." I lie. Why else would I fucking hate her ass. She fucking kissed Louis, right in front of me when I was at my weakest. 

The bell rings and the hallways become flooded with students going to class. Good thing we're here already. 

I walk to my desk after the French teacher welcomes me into the class like she does everyday. 

"Shit sorry." I hear Louis say behind me right after hearing objects being dropped on the floor. He's on his knees on the floor along with that new kid Dominic. By the looks of it Louis bumped into him making him drop his books on the floor. I bite the inside of my cheek holding myself back from telling Louis to leave Dominic's shit there for him to handle himself. 

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