True Colors (Sequel to Colorful) [Adopted by Emblem3]

Chapter 6: I'm only human

Song of the Chapter: Human by Christina Perri

WES FOLLOWED ME ON TWIYTER OMFG
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Ryder's POV:

"Ryder, get up." Drew said pulling me out of my bunk.

I groaned, "what time is it?"

"It's two-thirty. Were in Austin now. Parking lot of the tonight's show." Wes said.

"You hungry?" Kelsey asked handing me a subway sandwich.

"Thank you." I said, taking the sub from it bag and biting into it.

I sat on the small couch next to Ryan, who seemed to be filming, probs an episode of like those tour diaries they're doing.

"Ryder is just honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me." Drew said, from outside.

I'm probably not supposed to listen to what they're saying but, imma do it anyways.

"She's so small but, has so much love inside of her. She loves everybody." Drew continued, "The second I saw her picture, I knew that'd I'd take her in. I don't regret adopting her one bit. I truly do love her with all my heart."

I heard him sniffle a bit before Ted told him that he ended the video.

"Wes c'mon!" Ted yelled.

"Ryder, Ryder, Ryder." Wes chuckled, "She's one of the most inspirational, most strongest people I know. If you ever get the chance to hear here story, you really need to listen, it will really move you." Wes said.

"Keaton get your ass over here!" Ted yelled.

"Ryder is like the younger sister I never had. I don't think I'll have a bond with anyone else like I do with her. She's easily the best thing us guys have ever experienced."

"Hey Ryder, will you please come outside so we can interview you for an episode?" Drew asked, as he walked in.

"Sure." I said, standing up, slipping my phone into my pocket.

I mentally looked at myself. Ripped denim shorts, red magcon hoodie, my glasses, zero make-up, and my hair up in a messy bun. Well, shit.

"Just tell us what it's like living with the guys." Ted said before he started rolling.

"Living with the guys is sick as hell. Like, never in a million years would I think, that such amazing and loving people would come into my life, after the hell I went through. I'm honestly so grateful for them and I hope they know that I love them more than anything else in the world." I said, wiping away the tears that fell.

Wes, Drew, and Keaton pulled me into a long group hug.

"I love you guys." I mumbled.

My phone buzzed with a notification.

Twitter-

"@GKEN_E: Emotional episode of #E3TV ? @wesleystromberg @keatonstromberg @ryder_chadwick @DrewChadwicke3"
with a photo attached.

I opened the tweet with the photo attached of our group hug.

You could all four of us were tearing up.

I retweeted the tweet, saved the picture and started looking at what people were saying.

(A/N: I don't own any of these twitter handles. Comment yours and I'll use it?)

"@keatonsass: Too cute oh my god."

"@strombros: So so so adorable."

But, some really stuck out.

"@hater: Ryder deserves to be crying."

"@hater2: @Ryder_Chadwick drink bleach whore."

I felt tears prick at my eyes as I walked back onto the bus.

I jogged to the bathroom, sliding my back down the door, letting the tears rush down my cheeks.

I grabbed my razor.

One cut for being a whore.

Two cuts for being worth-less.

Three cuts for deserving to cry.

Why me?

Why do I do everything so wrong?

God, why do I have to go through all this pain?

Dammit, I'm only human.

I was two months clean and now, everything is just ruined.

Why do people hate me so much?

Normal people stand up when they fall down. But me, I bleed and bleed and bleed.

"I don't hate you." I heard a voice say from behind me. Who was it? Its not any of the guys. It's not Kelsey.

But, I said that all out loud?

Shit.

I stood up, bandaged my wrists quickly and opened the door.

To the last person I would have ever expected.

"Oh my God." I choked out.

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SORRY IT WAS SO SHORT ITS BASICALLY JUST A FILLER.

CLIF-HANGER ISH?

BUT WES FOLLOWED ME OFND IM SO HAPPY

I LOVED YOUR COMMENTS IN COLORFUL BUT YOU GUYS HARDLY COMMENT WHICH I WOULD LOVE IF YOU DID